🌻🧡🌸van!💞💫💓

mf i’m fucking dead i’m popping in and out of this mf its so sad......... i wanna get something out one day but ah brain doesn’t work :(( 
          
          i wanna say smthn real quick:
          
          i’ve been writing for a long time now, and i took a really long hiatus from it. fortunately, i was able to bounce back and made this short little thing a whole back and felt confident enough to have my ap lit teacher read it. she loved it, and i can’t express how happy that made me. i really want to keep writing. it’s so fun to be able to manipulate a feeling into someone just using simple words. i’ve done it for years, but it’s... now that i’ve realized writing for me just isn’t the same anymore. i can tell my passion just isn’t the same as it used to be, no matter how happy and excited i am when i finish something. it’s hard for me to write something that i like, but i always want to put my all into it.
          
          now, this account has some HUGE sentimental value to me. it’s been here for so long, almost as long as all my social medias. if anything, it’s one of the oldest ones i have. as wattpad died down and i lost touch with all my friends, so did my attention to it. i tried to pick it back up, and i managed, but it happened again and now i just can’t find myself enjoying writing fan fictions the same way i used to. this account means so much to me. it’s shown a lot of my progress in comparison to things i’ve written in my notes or in my google drives. i’ve regret letting myself fall off so hard, but it seems that as i grow, so do my interests and hobbies. though, i think that’s pretty obvious.

also i do NOT understand how u guys can stand my cringe from YEARS AGO

im back!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i have a few things i wanna mention:
          uh my passion for writing has died a lot, especially when it comes to fanfics and i REALLY want to continue bc i have some pretty MUAH plots so i'm gonna try to write more,,, no promises tho bc school and my mental fucking state is absolutely DOOKIE
          another thing is i wrote 2 things recently and i could not tell you how proud i am of them!! these two things were kinda based off my feelings and its just mUAH i let my teacher read them and she loves them :( i wanna share it with you guys but i dont wanna make a whole new book so if u wanna read,, pls hmu on insta @scissorjunk or on discord @ van!!<3#6063 and if you just wanna chat, go ahead and msg me there too :D
          i miss u all so much im gna try to update some books rn muah

uhhh.... dis kinda embarrassing

when will i update malibu </3

life sucks LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOO i hope everyone is fine!

gum and needles is punching the air rn

hey! idk if i’m like OFFICIALLY back, but i wanna try to get into the habit of writing and all that!! i also have news! the stinky boy i mentioned back in october is officially my boyfriend and has been since a day after the seventeen concert! which i loved btw because seeing joshua was so... uwu
          
          i hope you’ve all been well! i know that i have lol

just gotta pop in to tell u, ur my favourite author, i love ur stories so much dude !! i hope ur doing well lovey <3

i recovered from my last heart break and then some guy swoops in and now he has my entire heart and i like him so much like i really do