rianztiexoL

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I'm sorry that i didn't update for a long time, honestly speaking I've been having a hard time not physically but mentally to the stage that i wanted to give up everything and leave everything.
          	It was hard for me to keep my smile on pretending that i was fine because there's no one that understand me they just thinking and care about their own feeling without thinking that i have feeling too that i can feel hurt just like them.there's really no one that can just hug me and say that everything gonna be alright and that i was not alone.
          	And today,this morning i heard the news about moonbin(member of ASTRO)passing,this really got me feeling down the entire day.
          	I really wanted to cry but i cannot show my tears to other.
          	The reason why i turn to BL,KPOP and Wattpad is because i need a comfort and i was not mentally stable.
          	But people just don't understand they mock me for liking BL they look at me with disgust like i was a piece of shit that need to be removed from this world.

rianztiexoL

@ iamhell1503  you are precious too.
          	  At least for ourselves ☺️
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iamhell1503

@rianztiexoL I think it is okay to feel suffocated... Because I know I in reality there is no one with whom we can share our true feeling. I also have been like this for a long time and still there comes moments in daily life where I feel like why am I even alive, no one cares... But you know I think somewhere in this this world there will be another person who is feeling exactly like this. And when I think about this, I feel like I don't want that person to feel this way and give up on life.
          	  So if I want this for someone else, why I can't want the same for me
          	  I know it us hard to live like this but that is the best we can do by not giving up.
          	  I don't know if it is making sense, I just said what I was feeling after listening to you.
          	  I just want to say, if it is hard, just cry, if not in front of someone then alone.
          	  It is okay to be alone even in your darkest moment.
          	  Just go on a beach or a drive alone, bearth in and breath out and forget about that it would be nice if someone would be there with you at that moment.
          	  You are precious to your own self.
          	  ❤❤❤
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rianztiexoL

this message may be offensive
I'm sorry that i didn't update for a long time, honestly speaking I've been having a hard time not physically but mentally to the stage that i wanted to give up everything and leave everything.
          It was hard for me to keep my smile on pretending that i was fine because there's no one that understand me they just thinking and care about their own feeling without thinking that i have feeling too that i can feel hurt just like them.there's really no one that can just hug me and say that everything gonna be alright and that i was not alone.
          And today,this morning i heard the news about moonbin(member of ASTRO)passing,this really got me feeling down the entire day.
          I really wanted to cry but i cannot show my tears to other.
          The reason why i turn to BL,KPOP and Wattpad is because i need a comfort and i was not mentally stable.
          But people just don't understand they mock me for liking BL they look at me with disgust like i was a piece of shit that need to be removed from this world.

rianztiexoL

@ iamhell1503  you are precious too.
            At least for ourselves ☺️
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iamhell1503

@rianztiexoL I think it is okay to feel suffocated... Because I know I in reality there is no one with whom we can share our true feeling. I also have been like this for a long time and still there comes moments in daily life where I feel like why am I even alive, no one cares... But you know I think somewhere in this this world there will be another person who is feeling exactly like this. And when I think about this, I feel like I don't want that person to feel this way and give up on life.
            So if I want this for someone else, why I can't want the same for me
            I know it us hard to live like this but that is the best we can do by not giving up.
            I don't know if it is making sense, I just said what I was feeling after listening to you.
            I just want to say, if it is hard, just cry, if not in front of someone then alone.
            It is okay to be alone even in your darkest moment.
            Just go on a beach or a drive alone, bearth in and breath out and forget about that it would be nice if someone would be there with you at that moment.
            You are precious to your own self.
            ❤❤❤
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rianztiexoL

Hello,this is rere your sloppy author.
          I would like to inform you all my dear readers that ia'm going to cut of the part for my ongoing book which is not going to follow my first plan.
          I would like to apologies for not being active and Just gone missing like that.
          I will cut off the part so that i can start writing other book and i have one book that i promise to write for someone that i still cannot fulfill yet, I'm really sorry about that.
          
          
          Stay safe everyone.

rianztiexoL

@lovelyuseless thank you,i need to read all my ongoing book from the start so that i can process with the rest because i lost all my draft and the book cover too.
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lovelyuseless

Dear fellow EXo L, as long as you’re happy with your work!❤️
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rianztiexoL

Hai this is rere.
          I just wanna be honest with you all,i know that your comments means everything to me but if you think my stories or anything offended you then don't bother to read.
          I changed the characters names because one of my readers said that he/she not used to the name and now someone talking about the intimacy or you know that my stories mainly about BL or LGBT and someone still offended about it,what do you really want then?.
          Is it because my poor language?or is it my poor story line?.this is just a fiction and i'm not good at writing love scene and i know my limit too.i don't want to offend whoever that i use as my characters.
          This is why i Don't really want to continue writing.
          I'm mad but not to them that saying bad thing but I'm mad at myself for not being good enough.

ForeverTornWithTears

@rianztiexoL Baby Ria. Im sorry i haven't seen this on time. and im no one to ask for your update but i care about you and PLESE don't let these people interrupt your mind and thoughts. We love you and i'll always do.
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diamondlybeauty

@rianztiexoL As an exol, I have to help my fellow exol so stay strong ok
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rianztiexoL

@Emily7629 thank you and good luck on your writing 
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rianztiexoL

Dear my lovely readers.
          
          
          This is rere,i just wanted to let you all know that i will be taking a long hiatus because i have something to do, don't worry i will be back and finish all the stories.
          I'm not in my fit condition and i have so much going on so i hope all of you can understand.
          And i don't much time like before because I'm not only writing here on WATTPAD but also on other platform.
          
          Please forgive me and sorry for such a long delay on updating my stories.
          
          Hope all of you always happy, healthy and lots of love from me.
          
          
          
          
          .

Bellamus66

Its ok take you time. ❤️
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Emily7629

Feel better! 
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jiandc07

@rianztiexoL its ok.before you leave please make a back up copy of your stories just in case.take care and we will wait for your return.stay safe.
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feel_the_pride

Hey... this is Natalia Shane from YT and its not my real name. 
          I just had a look at your work and it looks quite interesting. Looking forward to read them.

rianztiexoL

@DurbaDas good morning sweetie and have a nice day
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feel_the_pride

@DurbaDas good morning my love...
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feel_the_pride

@rianztiexoL i did i did...
             I told you so
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