So I’m gonna cut to the chase and finally be honest with myself (and you all) when it comes to Shards.
I don’t know when I will be able to commit the time needed to return to it. I occasionally look at Shards and may add a paragraph to a chapter or tweak the outline a smidge, but it’s not real progress. I’m in my final semesters of college and don’t know what the future holds. Some really amazing job opportunities could be on the horizon for me, and many of them would be time consuming. Or if I end up going to grad school, I definitely don’t know when I’ll truly get back to Shards. While I’ll always hope and aim to finish Shards, I don’t know when that will be. It could be next year, it could be in 20 years, or maybe never…
When I started WP, my main goals and ambitions were quite different. What those goals once were are now a bit more fantasy than reality, and I am okay with that. Some of the things that could be in my reality are so exciting and I want to do them while I still can – before I get too old.
Also, my goals in writing have somewhat shifted. While the foundations of why I write have been laid for years, the foundation has gotten stronger and construction on that foundation has started. This is a fancy way to lead into discussion of a project I started in 2020.
During 2020, when I did have some more time to write, my writing energy didn’t go much towards Shards but towards poetry. This poetry is strong, emotional, and provocative – more so than past poetry. It was one of my best releases during a horrible year. This is poetry I want to publish, but I wrestle with when is the right time to do so. Hopefully it will be sometime soon yet fear of misspeaking and being cancelled weigh heavily on me. But if I do get cancelled, it might as well be before I finish Shards, right? When/If I post the poetry, I will announce it.
Anyways, that’s all I can really say now.
Until next time.
Much love~
Kay <3