ptv_anime_lover

If anyone out there is open to talking to me dm me I was hoping to talk to people and becoming friends:) I just need to openly talk to someone about how I'm feeling

ptv_anime_lover

Can someone tell me good books to read on wattpad I finished all my books in my library and I can't find any that are good so if you have any books in mind that I can read it would be great! 
          
          I prefer to have them completed but if it's really good and the author is still unloading books that's fine.

ptv_anime_lover

Just hade a huge fight with my mom. I have extreme attachment problems with everything so I don't like to throw away anything. My mom on the other hand is an opposite she throws away everything and also she looks for fights. She came and threw everything on the floor and dumped my drawers out and I don't like people to throw my stuff away without telling me and she then took my Harry potter wand and beat me with it and broke the box. I was in tears she threw away everything that meant so much for me and left me with nothing. It might not seem like a big problem to a normal person but for me right now I feel empty and sad and mad and angry and everything negative. I don't know. It's times like this I feel like relapsing on self harm and truthfully I think that's going to happen today.

ptv_anime_lover

Why am I so weird for?!?! I'm going crazy even when I'm fine. I don't get it what am I doing wrong?!? Is it that I can't dye my hair red?!? Or is it that I don't drink and smoke?! Is it because I wear a band tee one day and then a dress?!? Is it because I have never been to a concert?!? Is it because I am always smiling even when sad?!? Is it because I can't be mean to people?!? Why can I just be your friend?!? I don't get it. On the other hand now. Why do you think I'm a creep because I wanna be your friend?!? Why do you try to push me so far away not just you but the whole world can't talk to me?!? Why do you make fun of me in front of me?!? Why must you talk behind my back to my friends or people who I thought were friends?!? Is it because I can't gossip like you do?!? I'm going crazy and I have no one. Not even one. I'm so alone. I have nothing. I just have to put on a smile because that's always been my job. But it's a harder job then I thought. I need someone to talk to right now. If anyone sees this please help me before the loneliness devours me.

ptv_anime_lover

I wish I could be normal. I'm made fun of by people from my school and no one wants to be my friend because I'm a "creep" or a "freak". On the other hand I'm called a fake fan or made fun of and talked bad about by people who listen to my music and scene kids. Someone help me cause I don't know what to do please someone talk to my I feel so alone.