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christmas vacations are going on right now, but I JUST got to know that the last day, when I didn't go to school, the biology marks were given and I??? ME???? ranked 1st with a 23/25. 
          
          I'm like, shocked. 
          
          I failed physics in the last test, with a 3/25, with my sister scoring like eons better. and it was my first time ever failing. let alone scoring so low.
          
          And I've been feeling very dumb since, worthless even. and this just. made me feel like, so much more better. I had forgotten how it felt to be smart and this just. God it made me tear up. I wish I would've found out earlier but it's like. I'm just really overjoyed. 
          
          And I felt like sharing it.

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          I just spent 3 hours organizing my playlist in alphabetical order when I've got exams tomorrow

lately it feels like I'm in a time loop almost. everyday is the same, nothing to look forward to. nothing to excite me anymore. im not sad. just bored out of my brains. it feels like I'm getting stupider day by day because of the lack of processing going through my brain. i am talking, i am studying but it's the same thing everyday. i feel like i would prefer a natural calamity over this, it would atleast get me going instead of waiting all day for it to be night and all night for it to be day. 

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          sooo basically I got results for my this year's finals, anddd I got like 81.3 percentage, which is all great n stuff, but my twin sister scored 81.5 percentage. don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled to see her perform better than me, but I'm reallyyy down about the fact that she scored better than me in English. Math? Science? literally anything else? I wouldn't have been much affected, but English has ALWAYS been my subject of expertise and interest among the two of us, and, don't get me wrong, but I've ALWAYS scored more than her (in everything) until recently. It took me some time keeping my grudge about scoring less aside and genuinely being happy for her, but I did it, and then suddenly, she scored better in the only subject I took pride in. and it makes no sense, because I scored more in all of the practice tests, hell, I even ranked in most of those. So that bummed me out. I know it may sound like I'm being a bad person because I'm not happy about her scoring more, but it is what it is, and I can't really change how I feel about stuff, yk? Thank you for taking your time out and reading this vent.

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