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; craving angst…. Cause I’m Sick…
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; lowks been on the bg3 train …. feining for it
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; trigger warning, attempted suicide mention,
been wanting to explore the idea of alia struggling with her own existence especially after she tries to off herself, the one action that gave her autonomy over her own actions. not guided by the GDA, or anyone ever, but some sick, unexplainable way, it fails despite knowing it’s killed others before. then coming back to earth nearly fifteen years later, still stuck in that body you departed earth with, much older mentally, and it feels like nobody really takes your seriously !! you do everything to feel in control again, but there’s always a nagging feeling that it will be take from under your hand again, antsy …. Never feeling truly restful
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It just feels like every part of her life Now is just so carefully crafted to seem like she’s doing fine, new hobbies!! Wow, life— but she’s so down at the end of the day, practiced smiles fade, her body is tired like she carries more than the world on her Shoulders.. everyone she ever knew, Gone? She has Nobody, few at best, but they could never understand her, could they? No, she thinks to herself. Alia would rather suffer in silence, still smiling Thru the life she crafted herself… trying to find comfort in it all
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Like you’re you!! And then fifteen years pass, and it’s still you—stunted, reincorporating yourself into a new society, something that kept building despite your own world stopping. you’re nothing special , a woman with powers, not much of a use anymore since there’s better and stronger but Oh God you could never give up that life because for you, it’s been a few minutes when pain and agony stuck to you like tar …. For everyone… Their lives continued without you…
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; when i think about alia i gen stim n i gotta take a minute
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; oh here’s her card btw https://alialeflore.carrd.co
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; grappling w the idea of making Alia multiship or just making her single ship
maskearn
@outtahell / same here , and whatever you feel more comfortable with there’s no judgement (at least there shouldn’t be) it could be a small multiship , whatever is easier and more comfortable to manage .
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@maskearn ; this happened years agooo but I’m still fearful that like people will want exclusivity !!! But I’m like,…. Multiship…
maskearn
@outtahell / the opposite happened to me and that’s why i make most of mine multiship , unless i can’t imagine the oc / character with anyone else then they’re singleship .
milescounty
heh ׅ
you sure are a feisty little thing ׅ
just try not to die too early on、 it’ll ruin the fun ׅ
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(a dead stare, unwavering—) I don’t intend on dying, can’t say the same for you though, @bledfists.
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; forgot to say im the most active on discord cause shitpad keeps dying on me everyday i use this app
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; Yeah, I’m back on my bs with invincible
vltrumitpwr
@outtahell ㅤ㇁ ㅤmw my whole life is playing natural disaster survival and roleplaying as omni man
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