@mafuyuio hi there, this might come off a bit weird bc i kinda js stumbled onto ur profile after coming across ur fic DHMU (which was fire btw), but i still wanna say smth. what u wrote was honestly pretty relatable. it can be rlly annoying when ur mind is doing that and u cant shut it up. intrusive thoughts can be rlly random, weird, and messed up sometimes, but they don't reflect who you r. its js the brain being chaotic, especially when you're stressed, burnt out, or wtv.
not trying to give life advice or anything, but maybe your brain’s just in overdrive rn and needs a bit of rest? it happens. you could try to relax, unwind, and just let ur mind take a small break. i’m not great at social advice tbh (my friendgroup actually agreed that i have 0 social skills) but if any of ur relationships r lowkey hurting you in any way, that could lead to ur brain spiraling like this ig? not saying it's true tho, just a maybe - based on personal experience.
as for ur art, i think its peak and still has a lot of charm, even if it feels dull or off to u rn. sometimes we just can't see the good in ourselves (and our own stuff, like art for example), esp when we're not feeling great atm.
anyways, hope you're taking care of yourself and showing ur mind some kindness too. (hope this wasnt too weird, js wanted to say smth in case it helped even a little. mb if its too personal or smth (>[ ] <,, )...)
- a yapper who automatically starts rambling when seeing rants or vents... :x
