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~ Walking down the hall with her head held high, every hair is in its place, sees a friend and she waves hi, wearing a smile on her perfect face. Friendly, smart, and beautiful, everyone adores this girl. Seemingly content, her head's in a whirl. Inside she's unhappy, and doesn't know why. She lays in her bed at night and cries. She doesn't know what causes the tears; how could this princess have insecurities or fears? She has it all. A pretty smile, many friends, a great guy, the newest trends, her family has money, she gets good grades, has her own car, and her makeup never fades. Always looking happy, every single day, but inside she's feeling a different way. This is wonder girl, she's everyone's dream, but things aren't always what they seem.

~ I don't deserve you...I never did.

~ Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand.

~ No matter what, no matter who, no matter what I do, somebody hates me. -Reel Big Fish-

~ Cause fucking up takes practice, and I feel I'm well rehearsed. 

~ I didn't want to admit it. It was easier to lie. Hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry.

~ I've learned it takes years to build up trust, but only seconds to destroy it.

~ Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault.

~ Why can't you just love me for who I am?

~ Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense? Well that's how I feel right now...I feel like I'm facing everything myself, with nothing but tears and a fake smile...

~ I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain.

~ Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again. So when life gets tough you can just play pretend. I wanna go back to when Santa did exist. When your daddy was the only boy you ever kissed. When Disney World was the best place to be. When the only movies you could see were rated G. When your biggest problem was learning to write your name and people didn't change...a