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i realized i've got a strong attachment to my old username...i think about changing back to that one for numerous times already, i've made many memories under that username on wp too so i miss it :') 

i feel like i'm slowly becoming antisocial. i've been a huge introvert and pretty awkward since i was young but somehow, it's getting worse and i'm starting to feel that way sjdnxnxjsnh. i only talk with three of my friends (two irl ones and one online friend) aside from my mom oh also a few others from the game i play since well i have to communicate with them for the sake of game haha 
          
          so um what i actually wanna say is...to a few people who're close with me on wp, if u are feeling like i'm acting distant and not talking with u, please do understand that this is my situation rn, i'm not ignoring u or anything like that!!! honestly for me, it's kinda awkward to start a conversation too when there's no mutual/main topic to talk about, it's just the way i'm...hopefully no one feel that way :") 

i hate my father. i'm trying very hard to swallow the words i wanna say because if i ended up saying all those things, there will be more tension within our family. i hate that i'm not independent, hate that i'm living in a shitty country and just can't freaking leave. 
          
          does anyone have any suggestions for me to calm down? kindly share with me if u know a few tips.

FINALLY I CAN LOGIN TO MY ACC OMG wp had kicked me out and i've been trying to log in but there was smth wrong with my emails and i have no idea about my pw. apps keep kicking me out just like some ppl in my life whom i consider close, have kicked me out lmao anyway thank goodness i'm finally back into my acc i have a lot to catch up on here!
          
          i hope everyone is healthy and having a pleasant time rn! i've been doing pretty well lately, just not feeling that good rn bcuz of sneezing and coughing :3 

— POOKIE HRU

i always pray that people i love and care about, will always be healthy and happy. why u might wonder, well it's not because i'm a selfless person, the thing is i'm not happy so at least i wish for my favorite people to be happy. the reason why i can't pray for my own happiness is bcuz it's all depending on how i decide to face and ignore things, people in my life.
          
          i don't know why i typed all those stuff but let's move on rn. my heart breaks bcuz of all the mistreatment ricky has been suffering under wakeone. he's well-mannered and such a sweet boy, he definitely doesn't deserve to be treated that way. he got evil edited during bp days and now he's getting mistreated. coming from a wealthy family, he's for sure a person who grew up with lots of love and care showering on him so i can't even imagine what would his family feel once they find out about all those. i really hope wakeone will start treating ricky fairly and he'll be truly happy once again. i also find it hard to believe that i have to keep cursing sm and wakeone for shitty things they've been doing yet keep spending money to go inside their pockets bcuz of exo and zb1 :/

— hiii

— OMG HIII

hiiii i'm still alive! to a few people who might be wondering about my disappearance, i've been really busy with rl matters especially since my mom hurt her hand, almost all the house chores are my responsibility for now and that's excluding cooking tho i'm too impatient to cook lmaooo also i've been watching movies and playing games that's why i had to ignore wp for a while. i'm suffering from back pain for some unknown reason so um bcuz of all the reasons i mentioned, even tho i'm back rn i doubt i could be very active like before...! 

WOAH MAY THE THEME IS SO GOOD? i love it sm-