lavendercielo

Hi.
          	I haven't been updating because I've been going from the doctor to the hospital for the past 2 months. I've gotten 5 different kinds of medications. I've been pierced with a needle around 14 times and I have to go to the hospital again tomorrow and the 22th as well as the 30th and I'm so scared and terrified because they can't identify what's wrong with my heart.
          	I'll be getting a pulse monitor on the 30th and the 3rd X-ray tomorrow along with another set of needles trying to find my veins and take blood. I'm so done with everything. I'm drowning in anxiety and they tell me not to feel anxious because it makes it worse but I'm seating here crying and shaking because I can't take this anymore. I have zero money and a 3,593 dollar debt with my name on it and i still have hospital visits left that are adding to the debt. I have no friends to talk to because we either drifted apart after high school or they have there own problems to deal with and on my way out of the doctors a nurse told me since the monitor will be placed on me 2 weeks from now I should avoid having a heart attack before then and I don't know if that was a joke or not and I've been crying ever since.

Lorenaviven

@ lavendercielo  I read this, and I feel that she is no longer here among us, I hope that wherever you are, you are very happy
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BTSIsMyEuphoria2

@lavendercielo lovely. I'm so sorry to hear this. Your such an amazing person. I hope they figure it out if they haven't already :( stay strong </3
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lavendercielo

Hi.
          I haven't been updating because I've been going from the doctor to the hospital for the past 2 months. I've gotten 5 different kinds of medications. I've been pierced with a needle around 14 times and I have to go to the hospital again tomorrow and the 22th as well as the 30th and I'm so scared and terrified because they can't identify what's wrong with my heart.
          I'll be getting a pulse monitor on the 30th and the 3rd X-ray tomorrow along with another set of needles trying to find my veins and take blood. I'm so done with everything. I'm drowning in anxiety and they tell me not to feel anxious because it makes it worse but I'm seating here crying and shaking because I can't take this anymore. I have zero money and a 3,593 dollar debt with my name on it and i still have hospital visits left that are adding to the debt. I have no friends to talk to because we either drifted apart after high school or they have there own problems to deal with and on my way out of the doctors a nurse told me since the monitor will be placed on me 2 weeks from now I should avoid having a heart attack before then and I don't know if that was a joke or not and I've been crying ever since.

Lorenaviven

@ lavendercielo  I read this, and I feel that she is no longer here among us, I hope that wherever you are, you are very happy
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BTSIsMyEuphoria2

@lavendercielo lovely. I'm so sorry to hear this. Your such an amazing person. I hope they figure it out if they haven't already :( stay strong </3
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lavendercielo

currently in the hospital :|

lavendercielo

@lavendercielo i came in for chest pain and they said they couldn't see anything wrong so I should probably go see a cardiologist.
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Ryusha

Are you okay?! I mean your at the hospital so, maybe not. But are you okay?
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kaileenrin

Hii you may not know me but I think I remember something about you mentioning you not feeling well. So I decided to check on you again. How are you?

lavendercielo

@kaileenrin alright thanks <3 you too
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kaileenrin

@lavendercielo that's good to hear I'm so relieved you're alright ^^ stay healthy and safe alwayss <3
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lavendercielo

@kaileenrin I'm feeling a little better lately thank you for asking. I'm grateful you are kind enough to check on me.
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