𝕲𝖔𝖙𝖍 𝕸𝖔𝖒™

if you haven’t heard about this yet, the amazon rainforest (LUNGS OF THE EARTH) and surrounding areas have been burning for WEEKS now, i’ve only seen minimum coverage on the news here in the netherlands - even though thousands upon thousands of animals and humans are suffering. and what the aftermath of this horror will be, i can’t even imagine.
          
          petition for the amazon rainforest
          https://www.change.org/p/stop-the-burning-of-the-amazon-rainforest 
          
          and a place where you can donate some money to help 
          https://amazonwatch.org/donate?utm_source=Green+Matters&utm_campaign=aba099d9fb-weekly11282018_COPY_01&utm_medium=email&utm_term=0_0cc8a36e46-aba099d9fb-92294089 
          
          if you can’t chip in and you’ve signed the petition, please share it & talk about it, it only takes a moment of your time. 
          
          thank you @crimsyywrites for bringing this ( the links for the petition and the place to donate )  to my attention & for sharing this, i don’t have a huge following but every bit helps ( or at least that’s what i want to believe ). 

glass doll baby, 
          i still miss you daily. 
          https://my.w.tt/9JLF3Y6evZ

always you, you, you, you.
          it’s still you.
          https://my.w.tt/Fr2KJXEztZ

beauty in tenderness. 
          because you are lovely 
          within your soft heart. 
          https://my.w.tt/FYV2j4gyrZ

it’s been a while since i’ve posted and 
          was actually *proud* of something. 
          i’m going into my senior year in two days, i’m turning 17 in three and it was only a few months ago i’ve gotten my heart absolutely beat up by a person i cared deeply about. 
          i’ve learned so much already in 2019 and i wanted to share a small piece of my ( somewhat still existential ) thoughts on the platform that has always been there for me a my worst; giving a small piece the broken me but shouting that i’ve learned, healed, moved on and can finally be me in a way that i’ve found hard for a very long time. i think i used to care for a long time what people thought and felt about me, on here and irl, but i think that that part of me has finally matured to become something that wants to care for my own feelings instead of other people’s approval. ( not that i don’t want validation, praise and love from y’all and of course some good critique.  ) 
          
          i’ve said many times that i’ve changed, moved on, evolved or become something when in reality that were all just dreams i was impatiently pressing towards to. i’ll say now that i have become something that i am more proud of, but still am a piece that i work hard on to improve.
          
          i’m still here. still alive. still kicking. and still wanting to make a difference. be a voice and grow into someone that i would’ve looked up to when i was younger. 
          
          love is pain, i say and there’s a lot of sadness in my work, but the pain is worth it at the end. because if you push through and acknowledge the things around you, you’ll come out anew and better than before. pain makes you whatever you want to be molded into. 
          
          thank you for listening to this random ted talk. i just needed to let this out. 
          
          love you. 
          https://my.w.tt/PxwOKQOrqZ

im about to attempt poetry again, brb. 

it as if 
          when you disappeared 
          my soul kind of slipped 
          with you, not really 
          knowing how to separate 
          itself from your bones. 
          
          what’s mine is yours. 
          

there’s a certain 
          set of words
          a poet will reuse 
          (to describe things)
          in every single 
          poem in which 
          they try to convey 
          [their own] feelings in. 
          you kind of see 
          a certain pattern in it; 
          what they truly feel; 
          the kind of words they 
          like/the words they like 
          to describe [themselves] 
          with and with that you 
          see who they are as a 
          person. and i think that’s 
          kind of beautiful. 
          
          
          
          

Kim!! I’ve missed you <3

ive had a really bad few months tbh
          and i feel like really isolated from everyone and everything; 
          i really want to come back and stuff, back to creating and all that, because this used to be my outlet, my everything. 
          but at  the same time i know i've outgrown it lol, at least to some extent, so i'm torn. 
          
          but i'll see ...