larry_928
Maybe kinda deep but I keep having this struggle with my identity. I've gotten to a point where I don't need a label and a flag to define me, and I'm perfectly happy without thinking and talking about my gender and my sexuality all the time, it's just a small part of me.
Recently I've started experimenting more. Makeup, hair, clothing, u know the works, but only at home. I really like being and feeling feminine, but I know I'm not a girl, at least I think so. I dress masculine and I feel like a guy.
A few people know I have OCD, and I have struggled with it for a while, technically my whole life without realizing it. These thoughts have been making me think more about my identity, which I thought I had left behind. I don't need to know exactly who I am, and I don't need to know how other people see me.
I think that all of these thoughts are sending me in a circle, and I don't know what I want to get out of posting this, especially since I never really come on here, but I think I just needed to get a lot of this off my chest. And if u actually read all that ily
larry_928
@Only_Angel_31 I don't know how u summed it up so perfectly but you really did. I don't think I want to try new pronouns, I just think that I want to be seen as a feminine guy, which is hard right now. My mental health does make it harder for me to keep going in this train of thought, so I get stuck in these weird circles. Seriously thank you though, I will definitely update you through whatever obviously and I have been doing makeup and stuff if you want to see dhfkjhfs But yeah thank you so much <3
Only_Angel_31
@larry_928 it's okay if you just wanted to get that off your chest and have no idea how to feel or what to do. I don't really think there is much you can do, honestly. Now I haven't been in the situation you are in so I will never know exactly what it's like, but it must be so exhausting to not be sure. To not crave a label but still crave being confident in who you are. It's probably time that will tell. Which sucks to be dependent on. Especially if you can't let it go and it keeps occupying your thoughts. I hate that your OCD makes it so much worse. I really wish I could give you advice but I don't think I can. But I want you to know I am always here for you and I will always listen. I don't know if you would want to try out new pronouns, but I would do anything to help. If you want to try something out, if you want to talk about it, or just show me those fantastic makeup looks and outfits, I'm here. You don't have to struggle on your own <3 And we will all love you no matter what if you didn't know that yet (:
