zed

damn, a lot has changed.
          
          so hi, my name is zed. i use they/he pronouns and pretty much all neopronouns (honestly im chill with anything besides she/her and it/its). 
          
          college has literally drained me and i wouldn't still be where i am rn if it weren't for like 3 specific people that i am friends with. so yeah. anyways i probably wont be on here for another like 4 months bc ill forget again lol. 
          
          love yall!
          ~zed

Hello everyone! Little life update. College is going great so far. Stressful, but great nonetheless. I get to do cheerleading (which makes me a collegiate athlete!), as well as be in a small choir group. I also work about 5 hours a week for work study, which is where I am at right now. Although I have seen more teen guys in speedos than I have ever wanted to see in my life, I really enjoy it. I have made a considerable group of friends that seem to actually care. I was having a breakdown last week and one of the guys helped me through it. I also started on-campus counseling. I accidentally joined the anime club, but it seems fun so I may actually stick to it. I am also a part of the queers and allies group on campus. The best part is, everyone uses the pronouns I ask them to use. I will say that I am 100% enjoying myself. 
          
          Lots of love!!
          ~Karyl

I bought my first pride flag! I'm hanging it in my dorm room and I'm excited.

The best thing in the world is being thrown into a random group chat that a friend of mine made in which I know nobody and all of a sudden I have 3 new best friends.

I know that I am a day late, but Happy Pride Month everyone! I love you for who you are and will always be here to support you. I am always available to talk, and you can always contact me for anything. 
          
          Lots of love!!!
          ~Karyl

And just like that, I never, ever have to go back to high school. College, here I come!!

So hear me out:
          
          This year I made a deal with a friend of mine that I would write essays for him and he would pay me for it. Not a big deal, right? I love writing, so I could pump them out quickly. Except now between the 2 of us, I am writing 8 total papers and most of them are due in like 4-5 days. 3 of these are term papers. I have a solid 2 essays that I have finished with one of them being a term paper, but I am starting to feel overwhelmed. He does feel bad, but because I have been writing his essays all year I don't really want him to do it because we have very different writing styles and the teachers might get suspicious. Because we go to such a small school, I feel like if he were to do it it would be more obvious to the teachers. On the plus side, we are in the same classes except for the first hour, so the only one I have to write with no prior experience is that one. I just have so much to do in such little time.
          
          Thank you for reading my little tangent rant.
          ~ Karyl

Hello my beautiful people! I need some advice.
          
          As some of you may know, I am graduating high school in a few weeks. I have a couple of lingering "crushes" (although they really aren't crushes, they are more people I became really good friends with that I started liking) and I have mixed opinions on whether I should tell them or not. The one I will probably never see again after high school, and the other I am going to be living with for the next year. What should I do?
          
          ~Karyl

Today is "Decision Day" for the seniors at my high school. So we were asked to bring like a pennant or a letter of admission or something of the sorts. This is getting real folks. I am going to college. I am going to my dream college and it is almost fully paid for through scholarships and grants. I feel so lucky to have this opportunity and I even passed up going to an Ivy League for this. I am rooming with a good friend of mine who is going to school with me and she said that she has no problem with me putting up pride flags bc she is planning on it too. I caouldn't ask for better people, and you all have helped push me to be my best. I thank you all very much!!
          
          Love,
          Karyl

I am going to start revising my songbooks. If anyone wants to proofread, let me know and I'll pick someone to help me out.
          
          ~Karyl