jeunfiles
this app... it's been so long
jeunfiles
jeunfiles
i thought about what i wanted in life. when i was younger, i had such big ambitions, but all i truly want in life is peace of mind. a peaceful life and one without excessive heartache. i feel greatly and often get sad when i can't help the people i love, i want to get rid of the thinking that it is my fault. i want to see the people i cherish doing well despite the troubles they may face. i want people to heal and to be happier. but in a world like this, i won't hope for anything. i'll just say this "no matter how embarrassing or humiliating or painful it is, please don't ever give up on yourself and your will to live." i love you all sincerely.
—faith
midwinterspring
@1950sgal do our best. if we don't know what's the best, try till we find out — that's the only trick to life.
jeunfiles
i completely forgot to put this out there but i turned 18 earlier this month. nothing much has changed but it's a nice age to be
midwinterspring
@1950sgal i don't think growing up is necessarily the thing i'm scared of. it's more about the movement of time in general, like memories and entire states of mind slipping away. once a moment is lived, i become another thing. the experience cannot be re-lived nor un-lived, and what i was a moment (or a week or a year) ago i cannot re-be.
jeunfiles
@CallMeHymn i'm doing okay. like i said school has been a real hassle. but i'm great. i understand wanting to be a kid, growing up can be super scary but just take your time to enjoy it, there are benefits to it as well ig
midwinterspring
@1950sgal lol thanks. i'm seventeen but my mind isn't registering it. i wanna be a kid. anyway don't be sorry, like who ever has time these days? i'm on spring vacation right now but usually my schedule is also pretty filled. i'm doing pretty good (making up for lost sleep over the holiday); how are you?
jeunfiles
back to this app again after almost a year, or six months to avoid exaggeration. hi there ♡
jeunfiles
@CallMeHymn you're right. but i don't like the world that much anymore, so i guess i really do need an escape
midwinterspring
@1950sgal all things do indeed pass. and i don't think we always need an escape. the world on its own can still be beautiful.