jessicatt98

Three years ago today Cas told Dean he loved him and sacrificed his life to save him. Now today they are alive and happy together after Dean saved him, and they no longer worry about anything tearing them apart again. 

LoveIsMischief

@jessicatt98 that's what I keep saying! They're domestically living in a small cottage somewhere on the countryside, with peace and quiet and Sam occasionally checking in with Eileen, Dean owns a mechanic repair show and Cas makes pictures of nature and animals
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jessicatt98

Three years ago today Cas told Dean he loved him and sacrificed his life to save him. Now today they are alive and happy together after Dean saved him, and they no longer worry about anything tearing them apart again. 

LoveIsMischief

@jessicatt98 that's what I keep saying! They're domestically living in a small cottage somewhere on the countryside, with peace and quiet and Sam occasionally checking in with Eileen, Dean owns a mechanic repair show and Cas makes pictures of nature and animals
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jessicatt98

So.. I took down Bike Club and Dark Desires a little while ago and it just occurred to me I should probably let the few people that read what was there know lol my bad but yea I took them down not because I'm not doing them, just because I don't have the time to do updates as often as I would like and you deserve. So I'm just working on them in my spare time and then they will be uploaded as full fics. That being said, I will be editing what I had already put out there and changing some things so you'll need to start them over if you want the newest version. Or just pick up where you left off if you like a little chaos and confusion. Your choice :) 

jessicatt98

So I'm thinking of writing a "murder husbands/ Cas is a bad guy but Dean doesn't care and secretly wants to be one too" fic... Would y'all wanna read that?

jessicatt98

@UperNetrwol lol good thing the first chapter is almost ready then XD I worked on it all night
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UperNetrwol

I would totally read that
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jessicatt98

@TheSeventhSorrow yess lol great minds think alike xD
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jessicatt98

Oof.. okay so I kinda disappeared, I realize this, and I apologize.. it's been so freaking crazy lately and I haven't been feeling the best.. I do have good news and bad news. I'll go ahead and get the bad news out of the way.... For any of you who actually read and enjoyed See You Again, I'm so sorry but I am going to be removing that story from both here and AO3... I'm not scrapping it altogether. It will stay in my drafts, but I am unpublishing it. It's too emotional for me. As you may know Cas' illness is based on watching my grandfather have the same thing so it's too personal right now. I thought writing about it would help but it hasn't. So I just can't keep working on it.
          
          Now for the good news.. I am editing the next couple chapters of Bike Club so when I'm done, they will be posted at the same time. I lost my motivation to write for a hot minute but I'm back. Love you dudes 

jessicatt98

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Please keep in mind that when I write new parts for Bike Club, or any of my stories really, that I am doing so during slow periods at work because that is usually the only time I find myself free to actually think enough to do so. As such, my job is 10pm-6am on Saturday and Sunday and for right now I'm helping out at our other hotel property 11pm-7am on Mondays Tuesdays and Wednesdays due to their person quitting and just until they find someone new. This means that it's very late at night/early in the morning and I'm usually running on very little or no sleep and on the verge of a caffeine overdose, so my thinking skills leave a little to be desired. Please be kind and respectful if you find continuity errors or spelling and grammatical error. You can let me know in the comments or dm me, just please refrain from being rude. I struggle enough as it is to stay motivated with writing cause life really is shit right now, but writing is the one thing that helps ease some of the stress. That said, a new chapter of Bike Club has been posted so I hope you enjoy! 

ha_gae

@jessicatt98 exactly. you got this! even if it takes time, youll be ok and for now, its ok to not be ok <3
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jessicatt98

@ha_gae thank you.. it's been rough.. one dog going missing and another dying.. working constantly.. my car keeps trying to commit suicide on me at least every other day.. it's been a lot and honestly I'm just overwhelmed.. but things will get better.. if this is rock bottom then that means it can't get any worse.. I can only go up..
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ha_gae

its ok! i am.. just as bad tbh. and i am so, so sorry about your dog. i hope your life starts to get better soon
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jessicatt98

See You Again is gonna have to go on hiatus... I'm sorry, but with the topic of the story and everything it's bringing back some past emotions of my own that I just can't handle right now. I've had my doggo missing, and he still hasn't been found. And I found another dog that was lost and starving and I had to take her home with me because all the shelters were closed. I woke up the next morning and she had thrown up everywhere and was super skinny and frail.. I had to take her to a clinic before the shelter would take her in and she tested positive for the parvovirus.. she did make it through but it's just been an emotional rollercoaster for me lately, so I need a break from writing so much, and that's an emotional fic.. it will resume soon.

jessicatt98

@jessicatt98 thanks and on top of all of that my dog got parvo from the dog I found and he died this past Thursday so...
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ha_gae

im so sorry i havent seen this life has been h3ll, please take your time and dont worry about it so much ok? <333
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