DROWNING IN THE BLUE NILE HE SENT ME "DOWNTOWN LIGHTS" I HAVENT HEARD IT IN A WHILE MY BOREDOMS BONE DEEP THIS CAGE WAS ONCE JUST FINE AM I ALOUD TO CRY? I DREAM OF CRACKING LOCKS THROWING MY LIFE TO THE WOLVES OR THE OCEAN ROCKS CRASHING INTO HIM TONIGHT HES A PARADOX IM SEEING VISIONS AM I BAD? OR MAD? OR WISE? WHAT IF HES WRITTEN "MINE" ON MY UPPER THIGH ONLY IN MY MIND ONE SLIP AND FALLING BACK INTO THE HEDGE MAZE OH WHAT A WAY TO DIE I KEEP RECALLING THINGS WE NEVER DID MESSY TOP LIP KISS HOW I LONG FOR OUR TRYSTS WITHOUT EVER TOUCHING HIS SKIN HOW CAN I BE GUILTY AS SIN? I KEEP THESE LONGINGS LOCK IN LOWERCASE INSIDE A VAULT SOMEONE TOLD ME THERES NO SUCH THING AS BAD THOUGHT ONLY YOUR ACTIONS TALK THESE FATAL FANTASIES GIVING WAY TO LABORED BREATH TAKING ALL OF ME WEVE ALREADY DONE IT IN MY HEAD IF ITS MAKE BELIEVE WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE A VOW WE BOTH UPHOLD SOMEHOW WHAT IF HES WRITTEN "MINE" ON MY UPPER THIGH ONLY IN MY MIND ONE SLIP AND FALLING BACK INTO THE HEDGE MAZE OH WHAT A WAY TO DIE MY BEDSHEETS ARE ABLAZE I SCREAMED HIS NAME BUILDING UP LIKE WAVES CRASHING OVER MY GRAVE WITHOUT EVER TOUCHING HIS SKIN HOW CAN I BE GUILTY AS SIN? WHAT IF I ROLL THE STONE AWAY? THEYRE GONNA CRUCIFY ME ANYWAY WHAT IF THE WAY YOU HOLD ME IS ACTUALLY WHATS HOLY IF LONG SUFFERING PROPRIETY IS WHAT THEY WANT FROM ME THEY DONT KNOW HOW YOUVE HAUNTED ME SO STUNNING I CHOSE YOU AND ME ...RELIGIOUSLY WHAT IF HES WRITTEN "MINE" ON MY UPPER THIGH ONLY IN MY MIND ONE SLIP AND FALLING BACK INTO THE HEDGE MAZE OH WHAT A WAY TO DIE I KEEP RECALLING THINGS WE NEVER DID MESSY TOP LIP KISS HOW I LONG FOR OUR TRYSTS WITHOUT EVER TOUCHING HIS SKIN HOW CAN I BE GUILTY AS SIN? HE SENT ME "DOWNTOWN LIGHTS" I HADNT HEARD IT IN A WHILE AM I ALLOWED TO CRY?.........
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