Jordan-A-Gay

hi

miss you.

hi :(

i hate to say i miss you
          i think about you 
          and maybe i still love you
          but i moved on
          and maybe you did too
          i love my bf
          i love my new me
          and i still love you
          but 
          maybe some things happen
          thank you for everything in general 
          

I was just tackled and kneed in the side, by a 6'4 male who doesn't even get hurt by being hit in the head with a brick.
          
          he gave me a hug to apologize in return though.

I cut my hand on measuring tape, i'm in pain

You know you’re in deep when they’re all you can think about. Everything starts to remind you of them, anything from a hoodie, to a colour, even a place. When you see them, you turn that vibrant shade of pink. You tell all your friends about them, even your family. You think about them all the time, you even daydream about them. You start to wait for the moments you get to see them, wether its just in the hallway for a few seconds, or at lunch. It doesn’t matter if you haven’t talked to them, or if you don’t even know they’re name, you just know that you’re in deep and it’s getting harder to breath from the depth of the hole you’re in.

Monologues I've wrote: (Rate 1-10)
          
          They make me so happy, everytime I’m with them I feel like floating. I love seeing how alive they are around me. How just a single word can make their eyes light up. I didn’t realize how attached I was to them, until I seen how happy she makes them. When they see her, they become so much happier, it doesn’t matter how bad of a day they’re having she makes it better. It hurts to see them together. I feel as if my heart is being ripped out and thrown in a gallon of acid. They don’t realize just how much it hurts to see them together, It makes me happy when they’re happy. But it hurts to know I’m not the one to make them the happiest.  
          
          Nothing seems to be real anymore. I constantly feel like after I do something I’m just waking up from a dream. You know, like whenever you think you’re awake and messaging people, but then a few seconds later you open your eyes and you’re still in bed. It feels like that, but worse. It feels as if life is just one big vivid dream, like I can control things, but it’s still not real. I could be eating dinner, then a few seconds later “wake up” from my “Dream.” Just driving down the road, I blink and forget where I’m headed. It’s been getting worse lately, like I’m viewing things from another perspective than my own.. It’s like I’m viewing the world from behind a glass wall. 
          
          BE HONEST

Would y'all read a 31 chapter book where each chapter has 3000+ words?
          
          (Quackity FF)

I messed up. I was talking to this girl in my 8th hour about person 2 and his girlfriends best friend was sitting next to me... I told the girl about how he helped me when I was drunk the other night, how he told me he loved me but he has a girlfriend, I told her everything. I now know why his GF was so specific about the definition of 'whore'