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It’s my birthday today and it sucks… (I’m turning 15)
          
          I’ve been holding back from crying till just now because it’s either I stay in my room for the whole day and sob, or go out and get sushi with my former foster mother who gaslights me! and who i live with….
          
          I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s all stupid! child services won’t help, cops won’t help, the healthcare system won’t help, I HAVE NO ONE BECAUSE THAT BITCH MADE ME LOOK CRAZY TO ALL OF THEM! 
          
          So fuck, ain’t my life just fantastic! 
          
          And I’m even more fucked over when i remember that I’m so stupid academically. I can’t even tell time, or figure out money, and multiplication.
          
          AND I HAVE TO FIGURE THAT ALL OUT BEFORE I TURN 16!
          
          And I don’t even have the basic life skills. I’m a depressed wreck with severe maladaptive daydreaming, and social anxiety.
          
          So yeah, not to be a dick! but if you’re having a bad day sometimes someone is having it way harder.
          
          

Made a new book which explains more on what’s up with my life needed a fresher page ya know.

Hey I’m back again! A new chapter was written and an investigation was opened against my brother, no idea how far it’s gone since the detective won’t reply back. Life low key sucks I’ve been getting physically better but not emotionally I feel as if nobody is taking me seriously when I say I feel like shit, i guess what happened and the aftermath wasn’t good enough damage for people to feel sympathy for me.

          
          Tw for uh some types of abuse I guess….
          
          
          Ok so um does anyone know what happens if In a TOTALLY hypothetical scenario your dad gets suspected of sexually abusing you, but it was really your older brother (who also touched lil bros no no square) but dad is a jackass! and wants to cover his own ass. (keep in mind he doesn’t know who did the abusing) and makes you make up stories about other male family members (plan failed I wasn’t down for that shit.) 
          
          Can my dad be charged in Canada for covering this crime?
          
          Just wondering, also can you still pay child support from a jail cell?…

Back with another chapter of (omg i forgot the name.) anyway still super depressing kinda explains what I’m up to.

wsg bro

I’m back again my life might be going to shit again but oh well I released a new chapter it’s mostly about my younger brother my older ones a d¡CK…
          
          If you read the last chapter you’d know why. 

I AM BACK AND BACK FOR GOOD! I’m better at narrating my feelings so I’ll always just go with that stuff my life is better now I made a new friend who’s helping me understand how to avoid some narcissists that I’m ehem acquainted with I’m still depressed and traumatized multiple times since I last was on Wattpad (long story short I was sent to a psyche wards where I got abused emotionally multiple times twice.) and I’ve been having panic attacks constantly since then which was caused by a narcissistic former foster mother…. But yeah life’s less lonely but I still hate it low-key.

“ANYONE WHO FOLLOWS ME!”
          I released a few idk paragraphs for a book, I am a very lonely teenager! I needed to let the world know that I at least I exist! I’m sorry if I shattered anyones image of me being remotely innocent whatsoever, the fact is I’m not… this book will explain why the whole joke is I’m “Bound For Misery” it explains why I am who I am, if I can’t tell the people who hurt me what they did I can tell you guys ALSO-
          
          I do not care about hiding my identity! if anyone wants to go kidnap me then go ahead. I am actively suffering, if anything you’d be saving me! and that itself says something. I’m always in danger, it’s been forced into Normalcy against me! the books main thing is- 
          
          “you can’t change if nobody else who made you what you’re won’t change.” or 
          
          “Throwing rocks whilst telling someone to put in effort is like telling a person who’s on fire to calm down.”
          
          People are ignorant that’s what my life resembles… “they love you! but they don’t like you…”

I just had the weirdest conversation with two actually three doughnuts, that were unfortunately sexist… and they proceeded to say sorry, THEN say I didn’t do shit basically. (this was all on the same book different comments.) one basically went!
          
          |meanie|: he isn’t real meaning I can hate on a specific guy (but use a generally derogatory way of saying this specific guys sucks…) because he’s a book character. plus men suck anyways- (bruhhhhh-) 
          
          they were all like that! is this the matrix!?! I come back after like a year then see this? The audacity… same one also went!  
          
          |meanie|: I have guy friends…. men are also more toxic in FANFICS….() most of my guy friends are positive…. Men suck most of the time….. …..
          
          You see what I mean?
          
          Bitch thought I was a dude because I was  D e f e n d i n g men…….
          
          Wow… I wanna die. I really wanna die! I can’t- someone tell me something wholesome…