hazzardIy

Not going to update my books for probably a LONG time. I'm grounded :/ But I'm still continuing to write for them so :)

hazzardIy

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The "Rejection Minimization Theorem (RMT)" is truly brilliant. It is infact true. Sometimes I'm like "Omg, how do girls do that???" when I see a couple kissing. And then other times I'm like "Ok, real talk. If that guy-" *points to a fine boy* *or just a boy I know who seems cool and is cute and is funny and I'm getting off track, jesus* "- walked up to me right this second and grabbed my head to kiss me like there was no tomorrow, I definitely wouldn't have a problem with it. Not in the slightest." My emotions change like the position of the moon does, and it is something I cannot help. Guys can't read minds either. Therefore, it really should always be the girl who initiates the kiss. But this, in the view of an insecure girl who has no experience in boys, is so much easier said than done. I can barely get myself to ask my teacher to go to the bathroom in class let alone make the first move with a guy that I obviously am attracted to if I want to kiss him. So this could also be a sign that you know... maybe, just maybe, I'm not prepared to initiate a kiss yet. A kiss that I truly want, not the fake ones that are passed around in a game of young spin-the-bottle or truth or dare or something. I'm talking about the actual one's where both parties are more than happy to explore one another's mouth with their own. But I cannot share an accurate opinion on my part because I think that without true experience, I don't really have the right. Sure this is what I think now, but who knows? There are millions of different situations that could change my view in a matter of seconds and the future is unpredictable. Therefore as much as I say right now that I want a real kiss, one where I am the one who goes for it, where I am the one who almost has nothing to really lose, in the near future I could be the girl who gets kissed by dozens of guys and doesn't really want to be getting kissed but doesn't know how to say so and so will put up with it. I don't know, Im full of shit ha