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Note to self that I've been in wattpad for almost 5 years, like....really?
          	
          	
          	And all that years I just read (Y/N) - anime related, lol.
          	
          	I read the convo where I state "I'll be 20 in no time" and now I'm here writing to myself as "22 and fuck a lot of friends are married now."
          	
          	Aren't 22 is still young?
          	
          	I'm planning to study abroad first before married. But..... I can't help but worried about it, because parent and culture 
          	
          	Funny enough, I'm 22, I just graduated from school about 6 months ago. I've been home-stay since than not only because I'm not working yet, but because of CORONA and now everyone in the world at HOME. HAHAH.
          	
          	This convo feels like my time-capsule

hatssendayo

this message may be offensive
Note to self that I've been in wattpad for almost 5 years, like....really?
          
          
          And all that years I just read (Y/N) - anime related, lol.
          
          I read the convo where I state "I'll be 20 in no time" and now I'm here writing to myself as "22 and fuck a lot of friends are married now."
          
          Aren't 22 is still young?
          
          I'm planning to study abroad first before married. But..... I can't help but worried about it, because parent and culture 
          
          Funny enough, I'm 22, I just graduated from school about 6 months ago. I've been home-stay since than not only because I'm not working yet, but because of CORONA and now everyone in the world at HOME. HAHAH.
          
          This convo feels like my time-capsule

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@hatssendayo [REPLY TO ROAD TO KINGDOM]
            
            Pentagon didn't win the show. They won't join the continuity of the show, which is Kingdom. The last 2 stages after KTL is Follow (Monsta X) and their newest song Basquiat (바스키아 I like to write like this bc I'm not sure with the English name). AND THIS IS THE BEST STAGE THAT EVER PENTAGON MADE. LIKE SERIOUSLY, BEST. yet they didn't win somehow?? Idk. 
            
            Again, my plan to stop from Kpop keep getting delayed. Every comeback I always said to myself, I'll stop (or at least I'll try to) from Kpop and become a responsible adult like...maybe focusing on religion? If Ptg get their damn 1st win.
            
            I wish it come sooner because the more I delayed this plan and the more I become more attach to this group, it will be harder as Ptg is getting more awesome each day, I can not  I learn so much from them as human being; to share love, to be honest with yourself, to work hard, to stay strong even on difficult time, and so many more!!!
            
            I just want them to get their 1st win!!! Why is it so hard?? I can't tell how devastated Kino now... I've been on his place, like the title that never leave you like scar yet the one who haunt you till the end. oh god....
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@hatssendayo oh about KPOP journal last year.... There's a huge change. I lost all ex-wanna comeback and focus on PENTAGON. My ulti group and I had super mixed feeling about them. Like...seriously.....mixed. In 2020, they joined a show Road (or Load, lord Hui say? Lol) To Kingdom, it's a boygroup battle show. As I'm writing now, they aired the 6th episode equal to 3 rounds of competition. Pentagon so far have cover Block B Very Good (yea, that Jinho x Wooseok x Yuto performance in PTG Makers), SpringShine (the ultimate stage for Jinho because this year, May 11th he went to army till Nov 21), and Blackpink Kill This Love, collab with ONF (which is another ULTIMATE STAGE, that lead them to their very first 1st win in music related show and my baby Kino's crying because of it), the more I think of it, he reminds me of myself when I'm out from Dean's room right after yudisium, I cried right after when someone come and congrats me no more like they touch me and my tears won't stop for an hour. I even crying while take photo with friend. If Kino was sad because they finally got their 1st win, I maybe because I reflect to all hardship and the fact that I don't have to come to Uni ever again, no different though, hahaha. Aren't we good as couple, John (Kino baptismal name)? Hahah.
            
            
            Anyway..... My ult bias in Pentagon is Kino, he will and always be my ult, but my bias wrecker change eventually, like sometimes it's Hui or Changgu, or Hongseok or Jinho and anyone!
            
            Oh and life info in about 2 weeks I'll be an intern at game devp as marcomm, my very first company job. It lasts for 3 months and hopefully I can learn something from there and more importantly, I could have a better and stable job after intern. Wish me luck.
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I want to make a book dedicated to wanna one member after disbanded. Fill with their comeback/debut MV, listed according to the date of its release. I want to write memory about them. But since I don't have much time these days, I'll just write it here (before I forget everything, lol)
          
          1. Ha Sungwoon x Park Jihoon (19.01.28?) Dont forget
          2. Lee Daehwi x Park Woojin (19.01.30?) Candle.
          3. Yoon Jisung (19.02.12) In The Rain 
          4. Ha Sungwoon (19.02.22) Bird
          5. Hwang Minhyun (NUES'T) (19.03.12?) A Song For You
          6. Lai Kuanlin (9801) (19.03.19) I'm A Star
          7. Park Jihoon (19.03.25?) L.O.V.E
          8. Hwang Minhyun (19.04....) Universe
          9. Yoon Jisung (19.04.24?) I'll Be There
          10. Bae Jinyoung (19.04.26) Hard To Say Goodbye
          11. Lee Daehwi, Park Woojin (AB6IX) (19.04.29) Welcome To My Hollywood
          
          I'll recheck the correct date and list whose first and soon. But the song is correct, I think.
          
          Tbh, I want to make a big list of every comeback/debut stage from every group I like, like Twice, Pentagon and 1The9, Jeong Sewoon, Chungha, WekiMeki, Pristin, etc. So I have sort of journal of my Kpop journey and when I stop like them, I'll be like "oh this group I used to like!!" or "why am I stan them??" Lolololol. But I think it will be far abroad, even though it will be fun! Hope I will have enough time later, I want to make this journal real. I want to know how long I would stay at this way, I mean, I want to know how long I keep making sin (re: counting my own sin, hahaha). 
          
          That's all, Im going back to watch my stupid boys, Pentagon! Cheers 

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@hatssendayo 19.04.29 NUES'T Bet
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I've been into Kpop since 2018, arount the time PD 48 aired and get more intense on Dec 18, it happened eventually just because I'm bored and I used data package for unlimited YouTube.
          
          I start checking PD101 S2, since my sis told me that was the best season of 3. I got hooked immediately because I found a good account that share the series with good subtitle (they include the name of who talks what; I'm deeply appreciate it since I'm super newbie to Kpop and my biggest problem I can't remember Korean face).
          
          I hooked into each episodes and rewatch for several times up until now. I start liking wanna one and soooo mucccchhhhh into them, I checked every variety, concert, etc etc. I thought I would stop being Kpopers once wanna one disband. But no, I even got harder with it. I start liking other groups related to PD101 S2 (Nuest w, JBJ, jeong sewoon, ydpp, mxm, etc). I invade (?) My liking to PD101 S1 group related like IOI, Pristin, WekiMeki, Chungha, G(Idle) and Twice.
          
          Even after wanna one disband and each member have their own solo career like yoon jisung, park jihoon, ha sungwoon, ab6ix, baejin (tomorrow!!), Nuest, lai kuanlin and WOOSEOK.
          
          Yha, trough 9801 unit, I discover pentagon (not long ago? Its been only a week or so I think) and I start become the obsessive fans like on wanna one period. Oh gosh..... I want to stop but Kino is definitely bias wrecking and I can't stop liking him......

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It's been a long time since I write something long like this. It's a bit help to relief stress 
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@hatssendayo I want to talk about pentagon at first but end up story telling about how I love kpop, lol.
            
            Anyone who read this please support PENTAGON (hahaha).
            
            It's hard compare to look for pentagon variety show or just any clip related to this group with eng sub (bc they debut long time ago and kpop back then dont have much variety program like today? Or probably because they are not that famous to be invited to such program :( 
            
            Why do I like this group at the first place....But afterall I'm happy! They have the best quality member of any group I k know, their music is fun and the chemistry between each member is just friendly and like a big family, I just can't think straight how the leader felt after he loose one of his precious member after 4 years of debut because of company rules. 
            
            On one side I thought the former member was selfish of announcing his dating scandal without concern of his team mate, but at the same time it's not him who publicity the scandal it's his fearless girlfriend. 
            
            I don't want to hate anyone, I just feel sorry and want to always cheer them and help them get their 1st win!
            
            Oh, also the leader and WOOSEOK are part of wanna one energetic. I couldnt be more HYPE for this group. They're the best!!!
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sometimes I feel like I'm not suitable for any social project; my social skills is low compare to other, I don't have a bit of confident to share with other--then why am I still in this community? 
          
          Bc I don't want my friend to suffer alone? Bc I'm scared of what they think? Or what? 

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@hatssendayo I'm tired.....I need to review some CVs and essays but I'm tired
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When everyone is busy talking about racism and how beautiful the art, yet I'm talking about my fetish of The Try Guys
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          Guilty on the way
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          But really, I don't have anything to talk about racism. I mean, here where I'm living also has that kind of thought, but we're living far away from each other so we won't know about any of this. Instead of pushing my nonsense oppinion, let's just talk about something fun!
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          Like this...
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          The Try Guys by Buzzfeed
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          How Eugene is an all rounder
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          And Ned's wife 

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Kinda miss The Try Guys new episode... Now they're moved to YT Red (a premium version of YT? I'm not sure) and Squad Wars? Not really into it, I like the original Try Guys video
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New year in less than 2 hours. I'm not sleepy yet  because I took nap this afternoon, but to reset my mind about new year hype and all, I got to sleep before 2017 end. Happy brand new year, folks! Hope I'm not write/vent more on this account, I want to be (more) positive start from next year, because I'm getting older in about 20 days ahead. 
          
          Why time flies so fast?!?! I was thirteen when I start living away from my parents and not-so-long I'll be twenty, like oh fck. I hate how woman age so fast compare to man 

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Do you ever feel to yell at someone yet they didn't even deserve your eye contact?
          
          What if you get one, how do you feel?
          
          I'll probably curse myself under breath if I ever get one, haha. But at the same time I maybe too dense to realize that this person had that much of hate toward mine because all they do is silent...