gucciinmycoochie

Sorry for not existing much here, I want to it's just nothing I write seems that good anymore yk? Plus I'm scared it'll all get taken down uh-
          But this place still means something to me I promise

I hate when you're doing shit and working hard without being asked and then your parents are like "Why the fuck haven't you done this other thing I didn't tell you to do, why the fuck would you do that thing that also needed done" like
          okay fuck me then
          And then you go to do it and they're like "no I'll do it myself even though it's extremely inconvenient for me and it's your fault I'm doing this" when you do it
          Okay cool  guess I'll just go fuck myself, the wrong way since nothing I do is right or helpful apparently no matter how hard I try

So. The news has broken. I've talked about it more on various places but, in essence, he meant a lot to me. I've been watching since like, 100k subs, I was probably barely a teenager, and he's inspired me ever since. I don't think he'll ever stop, even now. Technoblade never dies. He lives on in the lives he's effected, the lives he changed, in all of us. I have so much more I could say, as always. But I have no doubt he's in a great place now. He deserves every bit of it. Rip, techno.
          And all of you? Take care of yourselves. We're all in this together.
          I saw the entirety of hypixel grieving today, together. And it made me realize not only how loved and what a legend he is and will continue to live on to be for everyone, but also that we will get through this, together. It's going to be okay. Take time off. Talk to someone. Do what you need to do. It's okay. We're all having a hard time, hand in hand.
          Damn if that man wasn't the best of them. You'll be missed. And not forgotten.
          
          Fuck.

no but also why does "i wish i could be a girl" hit so hard rn bc I AM right
          right
          r-right...

do i need to process my feelings or avoid acknowledging them to avoid further harm rn
          
          -the constant question
          
          everything is bad and i can't stand it anymore

tell me my ass did not just say that shit
          "it's okay, they don't know how *cool* you are on the internet"
          TELL ME MY ASS DID NOT JUST THINK THAT SHIT TO MYSELF COMPLETELY UNIRONICALLY PWSAHAHSHHAHA wtaf is wrong with me why am i so goddamn cringe

Damien from monster prom has like
          A dean Winchester vibe but if he was bisexual and Bakugou-pilled and also a monster

Miku Hollywood Undead Everywhere I Go cover just bc I think it's be funny as fuck

...I'm gonna clean my room now

love when my mom brings people over bc she always shows them around the house and that and eventually brings them up to my room, and i'm just in there like a little cave gremlin playing minecraft or drawing
          but recently this guy she brought walks in, looks around a second at my leds, fancy computer case, Minecraft pillows, mountain of clothes i never put away in three months on the dresser, figures, Miku poster, etc. etc and just goes
          "oh, so you're a GAMER then!" in the most "oh you're one of those losers from the memes i see the genz kids post" kinda way ever and it took everything i had not to fucking laugh my ASS off holy shit i need to move out-