futileWIHTP

THE VISITOR
          
          It has been a while since you've visited me,
          I once loved your presence for you reaffirm the reality of "we",
          I can say I've missed you
          but why does your sudden reappearance made me blue?
          
          You are the ache that actually ached,
          Not the one that I enjoyed.
          This time, it makes my heart break,
          That makes me want to feel rather empty and void.
          
          What does this even mean?
          Why does my heart betray me for what my eyes have seen?
          It shouldn't have reacted this way,
          I wish you would stop beating rather than be swayed.
          
          ~futileWIHTP

So it's true that sometimes it is draining trying to comfort others  I'm tired

I suddenly got an interest writing about NMIXX hehe. Just oneshots as well. I want to go back to writing T.T

MESSY MIND, SEE WHAT YOU'LL FIND
          
          What must one do
          To clear a mind filled with fog a dew?
          Hysterical mind,
          Ecstatic, Melancholic, Anxious, anything that you can find.
          
          A word could mean thousands,
          And refusing to ask what it certainly mean could drain the patience you gathered as funds.
          It wouldn't matter anyway,
          You'll believe what you want to believe without further delay.
          
          So you could say "I love you" everyday,
          In the sincerest way,
          But I would still doubt, your words were cliche,
          And were only uttered for display.
          
          No matter how bitter it may sound,
          There is no way to coax a heart that has been bound
          To be free from sweet talks in a merry-go-round.
          

:)

Ikaw nalang talaga karamay ko, Wattpad

The love cycle must be like:
          
          Building up>More than enough time> enough time> less time> no more time> end
          
          Isn't it tragic?

Happy New Year!! 
          
          New Year's Resolution:
          Be active than last year hehe

I'm waiting,
          But I don't even know what I'm waiting for.
          When I realized that, tears just kept on flowing.
          Silent tears,
          I wiped them as soon as they fell,
          But a lot more came flowing down.
          Stupid eyes

I don't know anymore, 
          What to do,
          What to feel.
          Too many thoughts,
          So confusing.
          Can't do any shortcuts, 
          but at least let me be sad.
          If only I have my freedom,
          If only I wasn't trying to be righteous,
          This dilemma wouldn't come.
          But it's already here,
          All I can do is be eaten by fear.
          I wanna shout but it's narrow here,
          Nobody is fit to hear.
          Too bad
          For me