I wish I could tell you about me, about how I love to help people even when I know I can't save them all or how I play games all the time or write for release. 

I'd love to tell how my Manic episodes keep me up for weeks at a time or how I loved my depression instead of hating it. I'd love to tell how I've been alive for 20 years and every since I was 13, death was the only thing that made me happy. 

I'm not perfect, no where near Madusa, but I'm alive. 

I'd love to tell you about how breathing in the night air brings me peace or that my newest song she's in the rain, by the rose 🌹 was meant for me ( I wish it was).

I'd love to tell you that I'm a lover and an oldest sibling and animal lover. Speaking different languages makes me feel alive.

In the end I may have an illness that has put me in the worst case scenarios,but it's honestly all just a dream, because in another universe I'm a queen and no one's in pain or sad. I'm powerful enough to shut the demons out and smart enough to live another day. 

It was all a dream........


Aprés Moi, le deluge.