emotionalsupportNPC

I'm happy for you. Enjoy ur life!

hi everyone, here’s a little update. my life has shifted in ways i never imagined because g came into my life. between school, work and catching midnight flights just to see each other, our worlds are slowly intertwining and we’ve been figuring out how to navigate this connection and this love. it’s ldr, we’re busy and it’s never easy to leave each other but it’s also very very real and worth every bit of effort. 
          
          we’ve also learned to prioritise what really matters in real life which is why i took a hiatus. life got heavy and g kept encouraging me to keep writing but she also really saw the load i was carrying. so we’ve been focusing on the important things in real life while still holding onto each other. it’s all intertwined with her patience, understanding and support and i’m endlessly grateful for it.
          
          i also want to thank you for sticking around while i took a step back. i’m sorry for the pause. life happened and i needed some time to focus on the important things. your patience means a lot and i appreciate it. 
          
          g - @esnpcustomerservice 
          
          please visit my love more :) 

You are very talented and smart. I wondered what you do for a living to know those stuff

@emotionalsupportNPC
          
          I don’t even know how to start this because my head is spinning and my heart feels like it’s spilling everywhere but I just need to say it here, I just need to let it out because you’re here and you’re real and sometimes it still shocks me, like I blink and there you are, like a part of me that I didn’t know I was missing until you walked in. You’re my mirror, not because we’re the same but because when I look at you, when I’m with you, I see all the things I thought I’d lost, all the parts of me I thought I had to hide, and somehow you just hold them without even trying, like you’ve known me forever.
          
          Being with you feels like falling into myself, like I’m finally home, like I don’t have to pretend or shrink or stretch, like I can just be and you still see me, you still stay. Loving you feels like loving me too, it’s weird but it’s true, because in your eyes I see the girl I always wanted to be, softer, braver, happier, and somehow I already am because you’re here.
          
          I love my life with you, I love how everything feels different now, better, warmer. I love the quiet moments that don’t need words, I love the laughter that shows up out of nowhere, I love the way time slows down when you’re close and suddenly the world isn’t so loud, isn’t so heavy. I love that you’re not just beside me but inside me, a part of me I can’t shake and don’t ever want to.

Dear author, I've read all your stories. I like your writing style and hope you continue writing. Please come back.

Author are you really not coming back ? 

i just want to say, i still reread your story. waiting for u here

Hey you, im waiting for your next story. Im
          Sure everyone do! Please come back soon

Okay so picture this, unlike the first time I’m not smoking and I’m not tipsy, I only took a shot because my chest feels like it’s about to burst, because unlike the first time when I wrote you something here as just some reader trying to string together feelings I couldn’t even name, now I’m writing with all of them crashing at once, how amazed I was by you, how I didn’t know you but still felt the pull, how I kept waiting for you to show up and you did, again and again, in ways that made no sense but felt like the only thing that made sense. Unlike all of that, right now I’m writing because in less than 30 minutes I will see you, not in words, not in imagination, not in a maybe-one-day, but for real, right in front of me, and god it feels surreal, it feels like my whole body can’t figure out if it’s alive or dreaming.
          
          I keep thinking about the firsts, the first words, the first time you noticed me, the first time you answered, and how they carried me here, to this moment where I’m counting down minutes and seconds and trying not to fall apart before I even get to you. And so here I am, writing this mess of words before the moment swallows me, before I see you and lose the language I’ve been holding, because I know when I’m in front of you all I’ll want is to stay there, to not let go, to not blink in case it all disappears. I don’t even care if this sounds messy or too much, because nothing about this was ever small to me, nothing about you ever was, and I can’t keep it in. 
          
          So from someone who needs liquid courage just to face you the first time, I just want to say, I am in love with you @emotionalsupportNPC.
          
          -G

I miss you! i miss reading some day, one day