Hi girl! I know you can’t physically read this but I wanted to give you an update. I finally got out of the strong denial and admitted I was a lesbian. I graduated high school. I lost my father to the same cruel disease we lost you to. I just got accepted into college, I start in two months to study political science. I don’t watch once upon a time anymore I can’t remember the last time I even logged into this account. Gosh, I remember being in middle school and texting you on my laptop and my tv logging into my accounts on the smart tvs internet browser when I would get grounded… which was a lot I was a bad ass pre teen and an even worse teen. I remember the group chat we all had. #classicmrspeedo . None of their accounts are active anymore. No ones. It’s like that whole part of my life is just abandoned by everyone. Which granted I abandoned too you know you grow up. You were so close to meeting Colin! You were so excited. If middle school me knew not only that her and I never met Jennifer Morrison but that I haven’t thought about her in years, she’d flip. god I was a mess. But I wouldn’t trade a second of it for all the memories I have with that fandom and you and this app and OH GOSH THE FANFICS YOU AND I WOULD WRITE
Oh, don’t hate me but my taste buds evolved and I’m not longer the biggest Oreo fan or chocolate in general my nephew is though omg. He was actually born two months after you passed.
I never even got to say goodbye. I was grounded from 7th grade tablet that week and I had made a new account because I got logged out of my old one. I had texted you hi and you texted me an hour before you passed. I had no idea it would be the last text I would ever get from you. I was in disbelief. I cried for hours. You always cross my mind from time to time and I know you are in an amazing place.
I miss you Holly.
-V ♥️
