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❪ ♕ ❫ ━━━━━ QUEEN wants to cry !
          
          ⠀⠀♯ RANT AHEAD ! !
          
          so sorry for being more or less inactive the last few months, school has been really testing me and i just need to get things off my chest because im so frustrated rn— I'm the leader of multiple final projects i have, from research to business plans and its just been eating at me especially since im also a news editor who owes an entire newspaper issue (as in i shouldve finished the newspaper three months ago but alas) — and its been eating at me because ive been struggling to keep myself motivated throughout it all and find the energy to continue doing what im doing and my groupmates aren't helping??
          
          like if di ako gagalaw walang kikilos (trans: if i dont take action, no one will do anything) — AND ITS SO FRUSTRATING BECAUSE MY MENTAL HEALTH HAS JUST BEEN NOT GOOD and i cant even find the time to figure out my own things and get some rest and recharge because EVERYONE IS JUST RELYING ON ME?? Like they'd just wait for me to do things and even when its clear that im struggling (as in rushing everything, like not being able to balancr my time properly) no one is moving to help me and its just so tiring
          
          whats worse is i feel absolutely guilty throughout it all because like?? these people rely on me?? and i can barely bring myself to get out of bed — and i know that its not entirely on me; its not my fault my mental health decided to take a deep dive but still, everytime i have to rush deadlines, i feel so bad because i shouldn't hvae put this on hold for so long but at the smae time why didnt anyone try to help and also is it so bad that i just wanted to sleep nad forget everything??
          
          i wanna cry fhshdh
          
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❪ ♕ ❫ ━━━━━ QUEEN has found an applyfic !
          
          ⠀⠀♯help my dc brainrot came back full force because of this af fr — anyways, please check out this wonderful af by @HoomanTree ; it's based on the Spiderverse films but instead of just limiting to Spiderman variants, you get to choose any superhero and it's just amazing — had so much fun (and mental breakdowns oop—) making my form so check it out frfr!! 
          
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          https://www.wattpad.com/story/355383172

hihi! i couldn't help but come here beacuse your long form (you know which one) is superior, like i've never seen a form like that— it was THAT good! chef's kiss, really <3

❪ ♕ ❫ ━━━━━ QUEEN has found an applyfic !
          
          ⠀⠀♯i'm not gonna lie, i've been gatekeeping this af for a while 'coz its THAT good frfr— but im done with my form alr so now gatekeeping stage is over and i implore y'all to go check this out ! it's a school-based applyfic based on seoul and it's just a genuinely good plot ! go check it out, it's written by @miu6cia ! hihi — on another note, ive been dying irl and im ignoring my own club president coz they give me anxiety but shhh enough of that, go check out the af now frfr !!
          
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          https://www.wattpad.com/story/358295489

❪ ♕ ❫ ━━━━━ QUEEN has found an applyfic !
          
          ⠀⠀♯ HELLO ! I'VE BEEN TRYING TO PAY MY DUES AND SUBMIT ALL MY PROMISED CHARACTERS TO APPLYFICS WHICH IS WHY I'VE BEEN DED MOSTLY— BUT ANYWAYS ! go check out this lovely PJO af by @colieluvs — it's set on Titan's Curse and it's one hundred percent awesome so please consider applying ! Tysm <33
          
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          https://www.wattpad.com/story/359943009

❪ ♕ ❫ ━━━━━ QUEEN has a story to tell  !
          
          ⠀⠀♯ HELP NO BCOZ — my intrams start today and we had an opening ceremony in the morning which was required so i attended — plus i had to like news cover it and stuff and i had this whole plan of going home after the end of the ceremony BUT THEN THE SCHOOL DECIDED TO LIKE NOT ALLOW US TO LEAVE — and i was stuck there for like hours until one of my friends went up and asked if we can hitch a ride with some random woman AND SHE AGREED?? so we rode with her on her car and was dropped off when we got out and it was so?? Im still laughing and im so grateful for that woman
          
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♕ ❫ ━━━━━ QUEEN is speaking lmao
          
          ⠀⠀♯ i DREAD being a news editor of my school's newspaper because of the amount of work i have and the pressure thats on my shoulders— i mean im literally handling the entire NEWS portion of the newspaper and im speaking to every person in-charge from admins to org heads and thats a big responsibility and sometimes i dread it, i dread getting a notification seeing the work i have to do because its A LOT— but then i actually DO it and im reminded of how much i actually love my work like i just finished critiquing my staffers pitches and getting started on our live coverage prep and its tedious but i adore it sm — i both love and hate my job lmao
          
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 ♕ ❫ ━━━━━ QUEEN is confused lmao
          
          ⠀⠀♯ can someone explain to me GENUINELY why i have to practice from 8 TO 5 FOR MY ON THE SPOT ESSAY WRITING COMPETITION LIKE?? WHY IS IT WHOLE DAY?? WHAT WSS THE POINT?? im regretting joining just because of the practice time i swear like-
          
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❪ ♕ ❫ ━━━━━ QUEEN is about to scream !
          
          ⠀⠀♯ Q ⨾ I FINALLY DID THE THING — I RESUBSCRIBED TO DISNEY PLUS AND IM WATCHING PJO FINALY OMGOMGOMG YESSSS — IM SHAKING
          
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❪ ♕ ❫ ━━━━━ QUEEN has found an applyfic !
          
          ⠀⠀♯ WAZZUP PEPOL — lowkey being shameless promoting other afs when i still havent finished some of my forms yet WHICH I AM GENUINELY FINISHING ASAP — bUT LIKE CHECK OUT THIS HP-THEMED CO-ED AF BY @-rimari — its so kewl frfr and there's only so little slots left so yknow chop chop, deadline's jan 10 so better rush if you want to apply!! either way, give it some love mwuah mwuah
          
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          https://www.wattpad.com/story/357829439