turnstile
Yeoo
coldiris
tr4um4t1c_4ngel
Hello
coldiris
“I said, ‘I think I’m dying,’ he said, ‘Darling, you’ve been dying since birth.’
By the way, I don’t have much to give, it’s all the same,
This ain’t no way to live, and every day, I get up and run ‘round in circles,
Can we ignore it, baby, even for just one day?
Don’t wanna talk about it, I just put on my face,
And if you love me like you say you love me, you’ll let me escape.”
coldiris
“CAN WE IGNORE IT? :(“
Lola Young
coldiris
I usually don’t share such personal details on here, but this is something that has been impacting my friendships/relationships with people on here. Long gone are the days of putting up a façade or false impressions to get people to want to be in my life. I’ve always been an open book, and I intend to keep being one.
I have schizoaffective disorder which I recognize is not well-known. If I had to simplify it as much as possible, it’s major depressive disorder and bipolar disorder all mixed with a “healthy” dose of hallucinations, delusions, and paranoia.
While my medication has always managed it well, the truth of the matter is that this week has been one from Hell. If I ever seem inconsistent or distant, it’s rarely ever an issue that’s isolated to just one person. More often, it’s that I’m struggling with something internally that I don’t want to inconvenience others with.
Iovesonnets
@coldiris this is a very brave thing to share. i don't have the same condition, so i can't pretend to understand that part of your experience, but i do understand how much it means to have people who choose to stay, to listen, and to meet you with patience. what i can tell you is that the right people don't measure your friendship by your hardest days or by how quickly you reply. they'll understand that everyone carries battles that aren't always visible, and they'll make room for them despite the hard days. "we like because, but we love despite." i kept thinking of this quote when reading your post. i think that's what the right people do. they don't disappear the moment life becomes difficult or ask you to be "easy" to love. i hope you continue finding people who offer you that kind of grace and patience, because you deserve nothing less.
banalenormale
oh Nico, i was right, you really deserve all the happiness in the world, for real
you're doing the best of choice, wich is the best for you, and i'm glad to know it
real friends will always be there for you, patiently and waiting for you, because they love you, ofc
you're strong and even if we just met, i'm proud of you, and who you are
i'll be there if you need company one day or just want to talk
hope the next days will be better for you and make you feel comfortable
take care of you ♡
rosedthorn
you shouldn’t have to feel like taking time for yourself, which is wholly justified and necessary, will lead to you feeling like you’re going to be discarded or accused of being selfish. the people who are meant to be in your life, the right ones, they’ll stay and they’ll understand and be patient. you shouldn’t have to be justifying yourself, not the people who love you. and i’m glad you feel able to share this, because it’s always hard to be honest about something like that. i hope you feel better over the coming days niko.
bableballe
Heyy
bableballe
Aw no we can always find another option ):
I’m just sleepy I’m awake too early. Why are you only alright
bableballe
To find peace in this meh life
bableballe
Any plans on joining a monastery soon?
banalenormale
heyy
banalenormale
hey ! just to say that even if we talked just for a day i miss you because i felt good talking with you and i cant wait to talk with you again ! :)
banalenormale
do you like America ?
banalenormale
oohh never been in Alsace ! so you came there once or not ?
i like it yeah, but sometimes no. like, people are mean ect, but the country is beautiful
inomniaparatus
like the eye? i love irises, wait maybe that’s a flower too and the rainbow goddess and that song by the goo goo dolls, well point is you have amazing taste whatever you meant w that un
Iovesonnets
i came across your account and i have to say: i knew someone who had an actual cold iris.
notrxce
And I don’t want the worrlddd to see meeee cos I don’t think that they’d understanddd-
meenaacee
coldiris.
meenaacee
hitting you up, because i changed my un.
meenaacee
hii.
meenaacee
i knew you're a gentleman.