certaintyy

12 AM thoughts update #2 
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          	dead and feel dead honestly. I want to write, I really do. But I have school tomorrow that I actually need to participate in. 
          	
          	I’m not tired but my mind feels empty know that I haven’t really been able to write much. I miss writing about some concepts that I haven’t been able to replicate. I’m not busy as all, I’m just lazy.
          	
          	I don’t like this, but then again I’m always complaining. Love writing, but I guess this has to be delayed for a bit.
          	 #rip 
          	
          	But I think I’ll try to squeeze in some writing in the week!! Expect a new story soon! x

certaintyy

12 AM thoughts update #2 
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          dead and feel dead honestly. I want to write, I really do. But I have school tomorrow that I actually need to participate in. 
          
          I’m not tired but my mind feels empty know that I haven’t really been able to write much. I miss writing about some concepts that I haven’t been able to replicate. I’m not busy as all, I’m just lazy.
          
          I don’t like this, but then again I’m always complaining. Love writing, but I guess this has to be delayed for a bit.
           #rip 
          
          But I think I’ll try to squeeze in some writing in the week!! Expect a new story soon! x

certaintyy

Here we go again. Take two of random story update #1 since everything decided to crash while I was almost finished writing this (silent rage rn)
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          I don’t know if ANYONE will see this just because of how insignificant my irrelevant this is. Like this whole post is just to cure that empty boredom I’m experiencing.
          
          So basically I’m countering a dilemma right now. It’s not anything sad or bad, it’s just that I’m up at 12 AM with school the next day and I’m not even tired. What am I doing with my life? Like I feel this strange full empty void inside of me that feels awfully incomplete.
          It’s not sadness or anger, it’s just empty. Did I not do anything today?
          
          Well I did make cupcakes AND cakes for 2 hours and played Roblox AND did an hour of work so why am I feeling empty? Because I haven’t wrote a good story in AGES!!
          
          As you know, I love writing stories because Wattpad/Quotev stuff and I can’t go a month without writing a decent chapter. But it’s INCHING TO THAT POINT.
          
          I do know what I want to write. I want to complete the ALLURING story - I have the whole storyline and everything planned out. I even have the ending! But for some reason my brain is just empty and I don’t know how to put it into words. 
          
          And what’s worse is that I have so many distractions that stop me from continuing to keep a consistent writing life. 
          
          I have so many ideas I want to write about from: a weird vampire love story, a dramatic soulmate story with 100 plot twists, a sci-fi apocalyptic horror themed book based on a group of teens weaving their way through a maze of problems AND a sweet innocent story that starts out like the perfect cute lifestyle but soon ascends into some horror dystopia stuff but I obviously can’t keep up with that.
          
          I don’t even know - I’m just desperate to write paragraphs (not English tho. Anything but English work)
          
          That’s all for my 12 AM post. Thanks for listening LOL and rest well readers!