hi.
so i might start a new story, but it won't be bts-related. i think i'll use it as a blog, maybe with weekly/random updates. ive been having a lot of issues recently, and i'm sorry for the annoying announcements, and I don't want to bother or negatively affect armys, or anyone, really, with the depressing crap. i know it's a sensitive spot for a lot of people, but i need somewhere to get it out.
i recently quit therapy. it was probably a stupid decision, but it wasn't getting me anywhere. i don't feel comfortable talking to people i know about my problems. three people at my school committed suicide in the past year, and it's a small school, so everyone knows them. im afraid that, if i talk to any of my friends about my situation, i'll be accused of wanting attention because the other students did it.
basically, i need somewhere to get advice, because wattpad is one of the last places i feel safe. i don't know anyone on here irl (i'm assuming), so i feel i can be honest. maybe i'll use it (the story) to mark progress, or decline, or maybe it can help other people who are going through similar things feel less alone.
if you arent comfortable reading such things, dont read it. I honestly dont expect anyone here to read it, but I will ask for advice from whomever ends up there.
yes, bts is still one of the most important parts of my life, and I still have intentions on continuing to write fics if I make it through this. if not, so be it. but they won't be mentioned often in the blog thing.
