Aurellia~

Aww no more private messaging in Wattpad ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ that ss so sad

WHO WATCHED THE LATEST EPS OF HAZBIN HOTEL?!?! F*CK ME! F*CKK ME!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS MOTHERF— *coughs* I mean, you... Lovely... Folks
          
          

Au: She just needs a good and hard f*ck... Any volunteers tho?

Au: I wanna eat cake.

And before I knew it, I was working on In Between 2 and I entered January (kinky). And my fanfic wasn't even near done yet. So I tried fixing some things, myself included, just so I can finish it. I started to get better and soon enough... I wanted to live.
          
          I guess I can say Charlize has saved me.
          
          Unfortunately... I can't say the same atm. What exactly happened last year was happening once again. It even got to the point where I dropped reading fanfics that once had brought me great joy.
          
          And this time, I wonder what or who will save me? Or maybe my luck just ran out. 
          
          I guess depression really has a kink for me, no matter how many times I told it to f*ck off.
          
          Anyways, why did I post this you may ask? Well, I want you to know you're not the only one dreading the end of 2023. 
          
          But I'm hoping that we'll get the courage and will to live once again and to never think about such thoughts ever. 
          
          Don't comment, just read. (2/2)

New Year is approaching, will it be the "New you" or the "End of you"?
          
          TW: Mentions of Depression and Suicide
          
          I wonder if you had planned for this all year long?
          
          Honestly, I don't want to sound dramatic... No wait, scratch that. We're not being dramatic, we never were, some people are just fortunate enough to be strong despite their situations, and they think that's enough for them to judge those who are weak willed.
          
          We handle situations differently... That's what others fail to understand.
          
          However, once hopelessness and depression wins, you and I both know what road we all would take.
          
          Year 2022, somewhere around September, was the highest peak of my depression. I won't tell the cause(s), I don't want to compare, nor to be compared. 
          
          I dropped my 1st semester classes, I had shut myself from the outside world, I ghosted my friends and family, I abandoned painting and singing, and just slept inside my room. Ofc I still ate. But other than that, I didn't care for other health necessities. 
          
          God knows how long I didn't even took a bath back then.
          
          I was ready to end myself by the end of December, since I didn't want my ma and sister to celebrate Christmas and New Year mourning. Then long story short, I watched SGE, saw Lesso (I didn't know who Charlize was back then), got interested and searched who the cast was and got further intrigued.
          
          October 24 I started reading her fanfics, and surprisingly, it occupied my mind other than ending myself that year. I felt genuinely happy. The slow updates were killing me though, so voila! I made In Between.
          
          However, with suicide still wasn't out of the picture, I published chapters daily, since I was racing against time. I didn't want to leave it in a cliffhanger. (1/2)

The Cat, Little Dog and... Big Dog
          
          
          
          Inspired by the Author helping Cosmo (cat) to hunt some lizards with a broom from the ceiling with Hotdog (Lil dog) and Abu (Big doggo) getting excited with all the hype basically jumping and distracting Le Cosmo and getting hissed all the time. My Lord if this ends well, it's f*cking hilarious and Idek if I'm gonna post it here on this account cuz it's for fanfics and f*cking.
          
          Also, happy NNN! Oh, nothing happy about it? Then give up like the p*ssy you all are! Ciao
          
          -Aurellia

God both "In between" disappeared from my reading lists and I was so scared that you deleted all ur stories