My name is Grace

Being misunderstood is painful. It has left me feeling helpless, shameful & angry. I only feel the deep sense of hurt, resentment and ultimately loneliness. All I have is an innate desire to be understood.

All I ever wanted was for someone to love me, to share my feelings and thoughts without being judged. Every time when I feel the lack of understanding, disconnection grows. I start to push people away, while needing them to understand, confused and scaring them at the same time. 

Yes, I had a troubled childhood. The fear motivates much of how I feel and behave. I couldn't trust anyone; this fear is in me. I am trying so to find myself, but it's hard. 

Sometimes, when I open up to my fears and insecurities to someone I love, I wish they would just give me the benefit of the doubt. I have shared everything about my life, my past, and thought he knew me better and understood me. Things are shared or said, which I feel I deserve to have the right to express my opinions, my feelings and open to hear your thoughts. But instead, you shut me down saying that I was wrong, you ignored my calls, my messages. I apologize, but you said nothing. You were not happy with my decision. After all is said and done, I have decided to let the whole issue go. I will make things easier for you. I learn to love you so much, but I decided to walk away .....

I promise you will never hear or see me again. 

I laughed a lot because of you. 

I believed in love because of you. 

And now I'm heartbroken because of you. 

Tears are words too painful for a broken heart ..