beingoutintheworld

Hey guys, I'm doing better now. These past five months have been the biggest life changing moments for me. I have tried suicide three times but then I met the biggest change of my life. He pulled me out of the big depression I was in and made me feel like me again, slowly. I still suffer from a lot of mental problems and my eating disorder but I wanted to let all of you guys know that whatever happens will never be the end of the world. I remember crying a few months ago at night and wishing for just anyone to come and take me out of the pain I was in. It will come to you, but I will not be cliche. The pain I felt was very much real, the scars on my legs are very much real, the tears I cried were very much real, and the attempts I took were very much real. 
          
          There will never be anyone there for you as much as you are for yourself. It may not feel like it though, because at the end of the day, it is your hand that cuts your skin, and it is your mind that turns everything against you. But please trust in me, you will find the hand that feeds you well, the hand that dries your tears, and the hand that gently holds you when you cry. I didn't believe in it either, but I am still alive surprisingly, and I actually graduated from my school. Please do not pity me or feel proud of me, but think of me as living proof that you are more capable than what your parents tell you, or your teachers, or peers, or even what you tell yourself. Your mind is constantly your enemy, but one day he will turn you around with more strength than you can imagine and with more love than you could receive. If only, you learned to love yourself first. 
          
          Thank you readers,
          -beingoutintheworld

Hello everyone, it's been two years already? Dang, I've been off Wattpad for a while, and I guess I just find it easier sharing this information on here as opposed to face to face with my own friends and family. This past year has been tough for me. I've struggling again with my exhausting eating disorder, everything I eat eventually just gets thrown up. I struggled sleeping but also staying awake, and it's like everyone has been distancing themselves from me, not intentionally, I know. My body and I guess just me in general has not been feeling well. I'm not sure how much longer I'm gonna stick around, but that's ok. 
          
          I'm grateful for all the love I've been getting on my Beneviento book and oneshots. It's one of the joys I look forward too when I log back onto Wattpad. I'm also sorry for leaving so long. You guys are very much appreciated, everyone of you, even the silent readers, the overly excited readers, the readers right now on this post. You. You are appreciated in life, don't let anyone get to your head like I let  them did. Back in 2021, I created another Beneviento book 5 chapters deep as a surprise for all you readers. I'm sorry, I can't finish it. I will post what I have now but, it will never be completed. This small fame on Wattpad has been the greatest achievements little me could've ever imagined with our first fanfiction 11 years ago. 
          
          Thank you everyone, for your years of support, for my growth, and for you just being you. I may not reply to every comment, like, or message, but I appreciate it all. This is my farewell until we meet again, if we meet again.

I’m still mad at you for that Donna fic >:((( but I still liked it >:(((((

If I were to create another fanfiction, who would it be on?
          
          Any fanfic ideas?

do u guys like bxb or gxg and how about bxbxb and gxgxg pls answer me

Hi, Yandere! Beneviento is posted. Check it out in my oneshots book.

someone griefed my minecraft server :(

High school AU Beneviento ?

Yandere Beneviento ?

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