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So basically, two years ago I decided to take a break to focus on my life outside the internet/socmed– sorry for the long hiatus :<
I didn't realize until now, that when I was very active here, I was unhealthy. Yes, I love writing, making fun stories and even making internet friends... But, I wasn't taking care of myself physically, mentally, and emotionally.
I often slept late– or not to sleep at all. I lost tons of weight, my appetite and sleeping schedule was messed up asf, and that included my relationship with other people. I often get into arguments with my family, all because of my pride or I didn't feel like I was being understood, I also just wanted to be alone most of the time. (My family were also stressed out bc of the pandemic, trying to gain some money for us to get through it, my parents also didn't respect our boundaries: my sister complained about this vocally more than me, she's more... gutsy.) I feel very guilty about this til now. The years I was active here was during the pandemic, and I came to realize that the reason I felt lonely was because I didn't have really close friends/people.... Even before the pandemic. The people who I thought I could consider as those "friends" didn't really reach out to me, or kept our bond. If anything, the only messages I get are from family and school gc's.
When I made friends here, I was ecstatic. I found people I was comfortable talking to, regardless of where we all came from. Some of you even made me realize and grow much more/easier (believe me, thank you. I can't even begin how heartless, shameless, and all negative/immature things some people I met... Basically, you guys helped me to grow up/be mature enough.)
