If there's one thing I've learned most these past months quarantined, it's self-love. Yes, I learned to value and reflect on myself. I've realized and discovered so many things about myself. I was given the time to look upon my past doings. Of course, I've reflected on my mistakes. I do have regrets. In fact, it took me a lot of time to move on from my past, specifically my past mistakes. Then, I further reflected that I – a human – I didn't only do so many foolish things in the past, but I also did good things. I decided to not be so hard on myself. I forgave myself. I promised myself to do better and not repeat my past mistakes.
This may sound cliché or you might have read this SO many times already– I realized that I need to love myself first before I can truly love others. All of this, I've done and will do with God. As I've walked myself from my past, I realized that He never left me alone. He was with me thru my happy and hard times. Also, I've discovered how lucky I am to have Him. I was never alone. I'm always with Him. Whenever I have something that I don't have the courage to tell others, I talk to Him. I prayed. I was never alone.
The past may describe who I am today. That's true, because its my past and I take it as a life lesson. What defines me the most is what I am today, who I decided to become. I will never let my past mistakes dictate who I am today. I am always trying to do better. I use my past mistakes to do better.
To you, who's reading this: You're not alone. God is always there for you. If you're having a hard time, don't hesitate to pray. Also, if you need someone to talk to, my dm is always open. Stay safe and healthy!
