If you've ever wondered what it's like to think about disappearing all the time, here's the answer: it's terrible. Every day is torture. And the worst thing about it is that you can always get your wish. Any time. But... There is a wild fear. This makes you feel even more miserable. And all this brings unbearable pain.
In my case, everything is very deplorable, because the "trigger" was a person dear to me who decided to throw me and everything that connected us. Without any reasons. I was just taken advantage of and thrown away when I was no longer needed!... I'm surprised at how I could afford to believe that I'm worth something... This is ridiculous!