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Feeling a little bit lost 

So stressed 

I want to just breathe and know everything will be alright. I don’t have anyone to tell me that 

My mental heath is at the lowest it’s ever been . Crying my self to sleep 

I feel so low on life right now. Nothing else matters. In nov my dog was given away. I’ve only known the day off. The day I got the job at target. We give him back to his previous owner then in feb I found out they then gave him away again ..   I’m sick just thinking about  where he is . My best friend. Such a kind, clingy, affectionate dog. Lately I’ve been having dreams about him. Wherever he’s at I hope he’s ok cuz I’m not . So many things running through my mind.  Feels like I have 1 foot stick in the mud. Everyone is just passing me by and I’m still stuck .. I will get him back alive . He was everything in my dark days he was there. Yeah he’s just a dog but he was my dog  I build a relationship with him. Me. I kept the first ever toy I gave him . I had to. Got a necklace of his face in it.  No one will ever love him like do. 
          
          
          Love you always D
          
          
          When I get you again pls give me the biggest lick lol 

My life is so terrible . 

I wanna be a child again . I wanna stay in bed all day and die . Life is so 

I hate life 

So my job I have rn is seasonal … and my schedule is getting shorter and shorter . Kinda  happy cuz this the longest I ever worked at a damn job 

Sometimes I sit and think like wtf even is life right now .. why wasn’t I a teen in the late 90s and in my early 20s in the early 2000s?