— kay .

anyways, i hope everyone's doing well. sucks wp took away messages, but thats not really my problem since i only open the website to check my accumulated notifications.
          
          if someone asked me to think of a ong that describes my life rn, itd probably be summer depression by girl in red. how abt u guys? has anyone else felt utterly hopeless and sad?
          
          so tired of distracting myself from it, only to feel it come crashing back the second i pay attention to my thoughts.
          
          the "it" could be interpreted as anything. trauma, depression, anxiety, etc. i dont have anything in mind. interpret this message how u want lol
          
          even so, this is definitely not my worst. ill be fine, i have nothing to be depressed about, ill get over it eventually, even if its just temporary. i recently relapsed after staying clean for 3 years, so thats really contributing to it. working towards two weeks of being sober!

i wish i was a boy

i love you guys :3

so much love to give yet so little to recieve

why was i born in such a terribly cruel world?

KENDRICK > DRAKE
          
          all of kdots mf disses were SO out of pocket. listening to euphoria rn ♡♡

stan stray kids

dove (doll ver) by antihoney. so comfortingly unsettling. rip antihoney

hi
          
          shame by mitski is so real
          
          bye

an update. just something quick...
          
          i hate manhwas that have tons of side stories. i couldnt care less what background character #8 did during thanksgiving. i dont care if the mc has two cousins that he sees only once a year, they dont add to the story at all. enough with the unessessary plots. i assure you, no one gives a damn.
          
          okay now the account is ACTUALLY dead. this topic js got me so pissed off that i had to talk abt it
          
          also, addressing the whole wilbur soot and georgenotfound thing— everyone please support shelby and caiti. i hate to sound like that kinda person, but my intuition was right. i had an off feeling abt them from the start.. esp wilbur. his songs had such unsettling lyrics and a subtly uneasy feeling to them.
          
          please do not forget— you do not know them. any influencers youve watched or heard of. you dont know the kind of person they could be off camera. dont act like you know them personally,  because you dont. they dont know you, you dont know them.
          
          of course.. i am being a bit hypocritical right now...
          
          anyways. have a good night. gonna take a fat shit