I wish I'd been, I wish I'd been, a teen, teen idle.
Wish I'd been a prom queen, fighting for the title.
Instead of being sixteen and burning up a bible.
Feeling super, super, super suicidal.
The wasted years, the wasted youth.
The pretty lies, the ugly truth.
And the day has come where I have died.
Only to find, I've come alive.
I wanna be a virgin pure.
A twenty-first century whore.
I want back my virginity.
So I can feel infinity.
I wanna drink until I ache.
I wanna make a big mistake.
I want blood, guts, and angel cake.
I'm gonna puke it anyway.
I'm sorry, brother.
So sorry, lover.
Forgive me, father.
I love you, mother.
Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark?
Can you fix the broken?
Can you feel?
Can you feel my heart?
I'm scared to get close, and I hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher I get, the lower I'll sink.
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim.