It’s weird how the things that once comforted me only reminds me of my flaws as a person. Not just with relationships but friendships how I treat others etcetera. I often worry I am a bad person, I know I’m not but I worry about it. It’s hard not to think you are when you feel crazy for things like trauma response like being anxious, avoidant, possessive, jealous. I think these feelings in moderation is normal but I feel if it’s extreme sometimes I may be a cause of something from old friends lovers family. Example, I became anxious in relationship because I felt less than in my older relationships I put my insecurities about being alone on to my ex and they couldn’t handle it. I think having a single era where your not worried about relationships and working on yourself is what’s best during adolescent years. I regret dating in middle school because it messed me up for high school. I’m ranting but identify your flaws and work on it before you lose someone important. <3
