ZoellaLmao

I think im done

I want to make myself bleed so badly right now I want pain I deserve agony

Need someone to talk to right now

Yay now my stash is gone and I'm still breathing. Best morning ever, love waking up when you expected to be asleep forever... :')

Okay I'm done. See you all in the after life. Being alive isn't worth it anymore. Love you all, stay strong. 

Is there a delete life button? Because that sounds pretty good right about now...

Update: I just found my old blades in one of my journals and am trying desperately to not slit my own throat. 

I kinda just wanna kill myself or just hurt myself and I don't know what to do because all my blades are gonna and I haven't cut in a couple months but my skin is itchy and swollen and my heart aches. I feel like such a failure and I just want to end it all. My head is filled with all these triggering thoughts and my scars are fading and I feel so lost without them. And I feel like I need to at least draw blood but my heart is saying stay strong and I feel so hopeless and suicidal. 

Why the fuck do I have to fall for the wrong people and end up giving my heart to the first person to show any intimacy. I haven't felt the slightest bit warm inside since I was born so maybe when I feel lust I mistake it for love and give myself away to the first person to give me the time of day. Oh tell me god why do I do this? 

Inactive forever lol I'm back bitches.