FaZe Adapt

I truly miss you, Declan. ( @FaZe-Banks ). 
          
          These days have been going by painfully slow since you've left and it's hard to believe that it's already been a whole month and a half, almost two. I'm starting to lose my wisdom over everything that's happened for these past three years. Starting to lose myself too. 
          
          I'm so drained from all of the physical, and psychological pain that it's brought upon me and everyone else. I cannot fathom what you were going through, but I can't help but ask why you never said anything or told anyone... Or got the help you needed.
          
          At times, I'll be sitting on the couch watching a show and then I'll look to my right as if to say something to you, but you're never in your spot anymore. It's just empty. About as empty as these words are because you're never going to see them, or read them. 
          
          I hope they're treating you good, and that you are finally, truly happy wherever you are. Until I see you again, dude... Remember, you're the most beautiful white butterfly my eyes have ever graced. 
          
          I love you.

Wound myself back in to the hospital again. Another car decided to side swipe me while I was driving through an intersection on a green light. The person was turning right and she hesitated too much. Gladly, I slowed down enough, but I still flew over the hood of her car. 
          
          I'm staying off my bike for awhile after this one. I need to stop getting hit like a bowling pin.

@FaZeApexTrash I feel you slipping away... And I can't let you fade like this.

@blazify 
          @ClevelandsVeryOwn 
          
          https://gyazo.com/e7818ae8cb2e7d9028d2a464f2090550 
          
          LOL.

Don't be telling someone shit gets better when you're apart of the reason why it gets worse for them to begin with.

❤️ chin up m8.

@YahBoiAdapt I know everything is going rough for you, and I wish you well. I don't think there is anything i can say to make you stay. So I really hope you get where you want to be in life. 
          with much love ~bre (the person behind Lucas) 

I know I have never met you really before, but I heard about what has happened. And I am so, so sorry. I can see that you have touched the heart of so many here and it breaks my heart to here about how much pain you are and were in. I hope to every good thing in this god forsaken world that you make it through this and that you come back to everyone. We love you so very much and you are so important to everyone here. You can make it through this. I know you can. And we will be here for you, no matter what and no matter how long it takes. 
          
          Stay Strong and Stay Hella Fly <3

I never really got to know the real you behind Adapt, if that makes sense. & to find out what happened fkn sucks bro. I'm wishing you the speediest recovery & sending good vibes your way. "Deep breath, positive thoughts -- we got this." FaZe tf up bro & hold on tight. love you man ❤️

Hey, I know we stopped talking and all, but I still wish you the best.
          I caught word that you're in the hospital right now, And I just hope that everything goes smoothly and that you make a nice recovery. You deserve at least that.
          It's also been said a couple times already, but we're all here for you man. Your friends, your family, even the squad. We've all still got your back, man.
          
          I hope you get better soon.