Xx_BatCat_xX

Happy pride month yall!

yktt13tv_

HAPPY PRIDE MONTHHHH :)
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Xx_BatCat_xX

Hey guysss i am back after a stressful time and i have a feeling that i want to get hit by a car and if that won’t be enough to kill me then i don’t know what to so after that :DD
          I can not go to therapy and i really hate when everything bad gets thrown at me like my family has been throwing everything bad at me for the past what- 3-4 weeks? Interesting how a single argument makes you cry yourself to sleep and cut your hands till blood comes out of the scars. I guess some scars never heal huh? They just open up again on the worst day with the worst timing. I just hope it all end soon to be honest

Xx_BatCat_xX

Yeah i guess i got many years to live yet i have nothing to life for right now. The futur may be bright or dark and i will see that just when i am there if i will get there one day. The worst thing is that i can not even go to my friends without asking for their permission and they are always mad when i ask even tho they have to only say yes or no. I can’t remember one conversation with my parents where they weren’t yelling at me or didn’t hit me to be honest. But i hope that i can just get out as soon as possible. I would just be happier if they just stopped caring at least for once
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yktt13tv_

@Xx_BatCat_xX dude, my suggestion is to just follow their rules for now, even if you hate it, it'll make it easier on you and not make things worse. Social media isnt everything and you can most likely still see your friends. Or you can just secretly break their rules, i do it all the time and get away with it. But suicide isn't the answer. Trust me. You have so much to do and to live for and once your 18, you can live your life the way you want to. Ending it now will end that freedom you will get. Teenage years always are the worse, especially with controlling parents but its worth doing because it makes you stronger as a person and you do have the choice to leave it all behind. Its not their life to control. Yes they made you but that doesn't mean they can absolutely control your life. There is no rules to life. You can wait until your 18 to do whatever or you can do whatever but secretly, but that ofc comes with a price.
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Xx_BatCat_xX

i just hope that the time will pass quickly before i do something that my family will not be able to save me from
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