BlueWillowCreek

Guys I am scared shitless -
          
          I'm going to basically a boot camp for kids. It'll be fun, but Glob, I'm scared.

I don't know why Pride Month makes me feel so sad.. 
          
          It literally should not. It's supposed to be a time to recognize the worth of people who feel a difference in romantic attraction then other people. 
          
          I should feel happy.
          
          I should feel loved.
          
          But all I feel is emptiness. Maybe that is why I don't like Pride Month.
          
          Because no matter what I do, I just don't care for something I don't feel is valuable in my life. I value my education and the future I can sustain with that education. I value it more then I value my sexual/romantic attraction.
          
          Because no matter how much you try to worship the human body to achieve self acceptance, you will never feel completely or truly whole. There is nothing more flawed then relying on others to lift you up and give you validation.
          
          To rely on a whole month to make you feel loved. Maybe that's why I feel so empty. Because I just don't relate with everyone else. Because my goals and motivations don't align with anyone else I'm around. True lonliness isn't being lonely in a room full of (random) people. it's being in a room full of people you know and love- yet, still feeling like you have no one to talk to. No one to trust.
          
          That's how I feel about Pride Month. And that's why I feel so lonely all the time.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Sorry for that random rant-

Hah.. So my birthday was yesterday. I mean it wasn't an aweful day. It just wasn't the best day. And because my party was today, I was really stressed because I had to do a lot of the stuff myself. Glob, I feel bad my friends- I snap when I'm stressed and geez, I got pissy a coupla times-

I DONT WANT TO GOOOOOOO :((((
          NOOOOOOOO 
          I DONT WANT IT TO ENDDDD
          :((((

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!
          
          (I'm fsy now lol)

Ya'll 
          Why do drugs when you could just watch Adventure Time? Literally the same thing
          
          
          Okay, I have a confession. I'm obsessed with Adventure Time now... It doesn't replace my Hermitcraft obsession, I promise!

You ready for next year? I can't want to see you againnnnn

Guys, Interstellar is an AWESOME movie!!! I watched it for the first time last night- it's a good movie if it makes me cry, thats for freaking sure.

Bro God just handed me new wonderful friends/brothers irl. What is happening!? This is awesome!!
          
          I got into a stupid argument/debate because my other friends were defensive for literally no reason and they fr just ganged up on me it was not okay :'[
          But you know at least I still have some people from that friend group who actually cared for me and didn't freaking get all triggered over some objective truth I said- 
          
          Bleh, well yk I'll be a little less active because my grades are currently suffering, so I've been focusing on school recently. I promise I'll try to come on at least once a week though

GUY I AM NOT DEAD, I PROMISE ToT
          
          
          annnyways, I finally promoted up and I'm so happy. 
          
          
          The story ideas be brewing!! Expect something soon, cuz when I have time I think I'll try to post something soon.
          
          
          Etho playing R.E.P.O.'d made my whole week, ngl. It has manifested the smarts in me, and now I'm confident I will pass my AP test next Tuesday. That man does miracles, LMFAO <3