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Four hours ago me and mum got an a big argument. . . .  She kept telling me that she didn't love me. . . But I didn't really care. I was soo use to the hate she was giving me that . . . . . I said some shitty things to her. . . . . I regret saying them. . . Because she killed herself because of it. . . . I should've known that whenever my mum comes at me . . . Yelling and trying to be abusive . . . That she was drunk. . . . .  And that she just won't stop overdosing. . . . . She hadn't touch me . . . At the age of 7 I started to feel neglected. . . . My father . . . . . Was really  alcoholic which made him abusive . . . But he was also a rapist. . . . I knew what he was doing to my sisters. . . I wasn't dumb. . . .  The way he tried to fool me . . The way he didn't love my mum anymore . . . . He left us when my mum found out. . . . He disappeared from our live and everything crashed down. . . . .  No one cares . . . There's no love in this fam. . . . My mum killed herself 2 hours ago . . . . And I barely found out. . . . . I don't deserve to be here . . . .  Not after what I did. . . . . . . Never got to say that I love her. . . . . I'm sorry