TokioHotelLover01

I never felt so alone these last few weeks.  I have good friends who have helped be during this tough time but everyone lives so far away. Nothing is more scarier than watching your aunt slowly start dying in front of your eyes and doctors don't know what it is took a huge toll on me. I couldn't sleep good cause all i could think about was what if we get the same phone call we did when my grandpa was rushed to the hospital and died of a heart attack. We are glad that doctors finally found out what she has and can get the proper treatment. She has a long way to go. She's slowly gettkng back to her old self. Her body is so weak and she's on oxygen permantly now. Now we have to slowly do her physical therapy so she can walk better again. I never want to hear those words that she's at peace with everything again. That was her way of saying she was ok to pass away. Cried for days after hearing that. I pray everyday that we can have her here a while longer. Now my body can catch up on much needed rest and so can my family. Maybe we can plan a trip to the cabins and have a family healing trip.

TokioHotelLover01

I never felt so alone these last few weeks.  I have good friends who have helped be during this tough time but everyone lives so far away. Nothing is more scarier than watching your aunt slowly start dying in front of your eyes and doctors don't know what it is took a huge toll on me. I couldn't sleep good cause all i could think about was what if we get the same phone call we did when my grandpa was rushed to the hospital and died of a heart attack. We are glad that doctors finally found out what she has and can get the proper treatment. She has a long way to go. She's slowly gettkng back to her old self. Her body is so weak and she's on oxygen permantly now. Now we have to slowly do her physical therapy so she can walk better again. I never want to hear those words that she's at peace with everything again. That was her way of saying she was ok to pass away. Cried for days after hearing that. I pray everyday that we can have her here a while longer. Now my body can catch up on much needed rest and so can my family. Maybe we can plan a trip to the cabins and have a family healing trip.

TokioHotelLover01

I can't believe last post was in 2017. Depression has gotten somewhat better but health stuff is still major thing right now. Found out more stuff about my health and have to manage it for the rest of my life. It's tiring managing it everyday. I still won't be on here alot but maybe will pop on from time to time.

TokioHotelLover01

@LOVETOWRITE45  *words* sorry auto correct put wrong word in
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TokioHotelLover01

@LOVETOWRITE45 thank you for your kind works. I understand my mother has fibro and i will take care of her when it acts up. Seem like this year flare ups are worst this time around
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LOVETOWRITE45

@TokioHotelLover01  It's okay to take a break and focus on you. I hope that everything gets better soon. I have health issues to deal with like my Rheumatoid Arthritis. It's really tiring to deal with everyday. Waking up stiff, And Sore is really exhausting. I am always tired even though I go to bed. I get fatigued quite often when the arthritis.
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Effronte

Do you remember me llllll

TokioHotelLover01

@Effronte i think when we 1st met u where really down and i got a feeling u needed me. Needed a friend no matter what. Someone to be ur friend for a long time
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Effronte

I guess you're right. I used to be so awful to people. I never understood why you stuck around.
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TokioHotelLover01

@Effronte everyone needs kindness in their life even a small thing like asking how you are doing can help cheer ppl up :)
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