the daughter of hades

I know a girl whos in so much pain but nobody knows. 
I know a girl who causes pain to relieve pain.
I know a girl who hates herself more than anything else in the world.
I know a girl who's starving herself.
I know a girl who doesn't want to live anymore.
I know a girl who can't stand to look at herself in the mirror anymore.
I know a girl who wants help so badly but doesn't know how to ask for it.
I know this girl by heart.
This girl is me.
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I am a slytherin, a daughter of hades. I am a dauntless, a wise and brilliant mind. I am a mess, a person who takes from others to help themselves stand.
i push and i push until you have no more left to give and you leave. 
i am the weirdo and the odd one out. i am the craziest from a long line of crazys. i dont fear death, i dont fear the dark, i fear the people who hide there to attack. 
i get attacked when im the weakest, but i put up a strong front. you will never see me cry, until im in a safe place where i wont be judged. 
when i feel confident, nothing can stop me, but when im down, everything just barrys me with a grain of sand. i am the forgoten and the ignored, the one whos to damaged to repair. i work hard to please, to the point that i end up near death. 
i over love and over trust, and thats how i get hurt. i let the other damaged in, but they are so damaged that my flaws cause them to damage me more. yeah, im that kid you see sitting alone at lunch. i have friends, i just dont want to get too attached, as i do with everything else. i overshared, making me the most vunerable.
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she's sad
she's hurt
she's dying
she's alone
she's lonely
she's a mess
she's judged
she's ignored
she's suicidal
she's stressed
she's confused
she's fucked up
she's depressed
she's misunderstood
she's tired but still living
she's hurt but wont show it
she's screaming but is silent
she's in pain but still smiling
she's me