Aaliyah Orr

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Aye bitchhhhhh
          

Actually, I guess I'm not done. I still have more ginger ale and SpongeBob.
          
          I've discovered that there is a stereotype for depression. I have no idea why I never realized this. Anyway, the most that I've seen is that depressed people get random flicks of sadness, self harm, are suicidal, and are loners.
          
          In all honesty, I fit that profile.
          
          But that doesn't have anything to do with what I was saying (it kind of does I guess).
          
          Depression is something that is quite difficult to understand. For me, it's like having writers block. You can't find the words to describe how you're feeling or a reason for why you are so sad at random times. When I try to describe how I'm feeling, I get this weird urge to just destroy everything in sight. I feel like crying and screaming. It makes me want to pull out my hair and peel away my skin. It makes me want to kill myself. So, I read. But I read so fast that the book is over and my surreal reality is gone. So then I'm left sitting in the dark, wondering if it'll be wrong to cry. Sitting there, on my bed, with the faint light of the moon, or no moon at all, makes me feel alone in the world. There was one time when I called my best friend and tried t explain how I felt. But I couldn't get my thoughts in order; it made me want to explode. 
          
          My brain is scattered right now so I understand if you don't understand what I'm saying right now. I can hardly understand what I'm saying right now. I'm just typing out my feelings, drinking ginger ale, and binge watching all of the SpongeBob episodes. I have no idea why I'm posting this on my Wattpad account, but I kind of don't care either. If anyone can relate, please DM me. It'll be nice to know that I'm not alone.
          
          Goodnight/morning,
               <3Aaliayh<3

I guess this is one of those nights where I'm deep in thought. Recently, I've been thinking about why I cry whenever someone asks what's wrong with me. I've realized it's because I know that it's so hard to explain and there's the chance that they'll never understand. But then again, if I cry, they can't understand what I'm saying. Therefore, it's a waste of time and energy to try and a waste of time and energy to ask. There was an incident when I found out some bad news about five minutes before I left to catch the bus to school. My morning was awful and I had math that morning. My teacher was on maternity leave, so we had a long-term substitute until she returned. His name  was Mr. Mason and he was fresh out of college. He noticed there was something wrong with me because I wasn't as upbeat and happy like I usually was. At the end of class when everyone was leaving, he pulled me aside in the hall. He said these three simple words "Are you O.K.?" and I burst into tears. I told him part of what happened and he told me to come back during lunchtime. I came back and talked to him about it and he listened. It felt really good because it seemed like he actually understood. He did, in fact, understand. He told me that I had a right to feel the way I did and he told me that he'd always be here for me to talk to him. For those of you who don't know my story, my life has sucked ever since the middle of January. I told Mr. Mason about that, too. He took me to the guidance counselor and we talked as a group. He will also be my math teacher for the next school year so I'm pretty excited.
          
          Mr. Mason has to be the greatest thing that ever happened to me. Other than my best friend @Guffufelpuff. They are both so supportive through everything and have never judged me.
          
          I guess it's kind of awkward though. Mr. Mason is this random new teacher that I so quickly trusted. He's pretty alright though.
          
          Until next time,
                        <3  Aaliyah<3

Alright, so, you all remember my story "No Matter What". A lot of people were confused because the story was all over the place. I see that, and I am going to change it. 
          
          I'll be deleting a few chapters and changing some things so it'll make more sense. You may have to read from the beginning to understand the changes. I'm really excited so I'm going to start as soon as I finish this message.
          
          So,
          Byeeeeeeee!
          ~Aaliyah~

Aloha! So, I've been busy. I know I've said that like, every time I past a status update, BUT, I've not been that busy. In currently working on a new mystery named Footprints In The Snow, so get ready!
          
          I won't publish it until I have at least 3 or 4 chapters done so don't get too excited. I'm working on chapter 2 so I guess that's progress or whatever. Anyway
          
          Byeeeeee!
          ❤️Aaliyah❤️

Hello.

Unfortunately, wattpad is still acting up so I'm going to stop posting the quotes until it's fixed

Soooooo wattpad has been acting funky and not letting me post my daily quotes. Therefore, you're going to have to be patient with my sporadic post and updates
          
                          Love,
                                 Aaliyah

Daily quote #45
          
          I have not failed, I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work
          
                   -Thomas Alva Edison