Hey yall. My mental health hasn't been great and lately I've only been getting around 2 or less hours of sleep a day, making me dizzy and very tired. So I think I'm not going to be on wattpad for the next few weeks, sorry. Especially with moving to L.A. right after having lived only a few months in Japan and catching up with my studies especially after being out of school for so long. I might check up on my account every few days but I will not be online as often, so sorry. I made this decision for my mental health and it's been extra hard after breaking up with my boyfriend. Sorry, I just feel kinda lonely and so I just listen to music on my headphones all day and stay in my room, but it's been draining my energy and lately I haven't been eating a lot, I just skip all three meals on some days. It's starting to affect my mood and well being and it's getting harder and harder for me to stop cvtting, and I don't feel like a valid human anymore. Im just slowly losing a sense of purpose and everyone tells me that I'm so lucky, to have moved more times than years I've lived, they say that their lives are so boring, but I would give my life to have lived in one place all my life with a childhood house. But my family keeps moving from one place to another, and I acknowledge very well thats it's hard for them too. I know that all my 'books' are empty shells. I just get an idea then I write a draft then I get it ready, then decide it's not good enough, so I rewrite it again and again, but it's just never good. Sorry for that, I just get really indecisive and stressed sometimes. I normally don't write posts this long, sorry. Sorry for making excuses. Sorry for writing so much, i just meant it to be a short thing but yeah? I won't be online as often for a while, sorry, I made this decision for me though. Sorry. I love you all so so much and this community is one of the best things to happen to me, sorry for talking so much <3 To the moon and back, Noah xx
