Taki

I have 12 unpublished fics in my Google docs. I'm too nervous to post any of them tho. I'm not as good a writer as I used to be, I think. I know it's in there somewhere, I just can't find it. Writer's block sucks. Writer's block doesn't necessarily mean you have no ideas, or that you can't write, sometimes it's just the words won't come out right, or that you're afraid to write. I'm all of the above, minus the no ideas part. LOL I really really do want to write. My Muses haven't been active in years and now that they are I just can't do it right. ><; I've thought of giving my ideas to other writers, but the thought gives me even more anxiety. Feels like I'm trying to give away my child or something. Stupid - probably, I just can't do it. I have to try to write them but I'm holding myself to my old standards. I have published books, why can't I write anymore? They were good enough for someone to want to print, so why can't I write like that now??? It's so fucking frustrating!!!! GRRR

I have a dozen story ideas running thru my head atm. I haven't had this many in a long long time. I don't know if anyone would read them, but that's not always the reason why I write, tho this time I want themto be read. LOL I really want to write them but the words don't come out right. It's been so long since my muses were silenced that it's difficult getting back into the mindset of having so many voices in my head again. Just an fyi, mental breakdowns are NOT good for your muses. I feel so much better now, and the need to write is like a deep itch under my skin, but my hands and brain can't seem to vibe with my muses properly. Just gotta keep at it. Maybe it'll come out on it's own. The stories run like movies in my head, over and over again, I just need to sit down and do it I guess. Blargh!! 
          
          p.s. I'm really f**king hungry! This stupid liquid only diet to prep for surgery is cruel. 

'Jon', written as a response to 'Damen' from Jon's point of view is now on AO3! 
          
          'Damen' was written by me, Taki_the_Chimaera, and 'Jon' was written by my friend Esmiel. It's been posted with his permission!
          
          !!!!WARNING! 'Jon' has watersports, blumpkins and lots of other tags. Please make sure to read all the tags before you continue on and read it!!!!
          
          I won't post it here cuz it has a LOT of warnings, and it's just easier to do it there! 
          
          https://archiveofourown.org/series/2463571

Writing a Yoonminkook fic atm. Hopefully it doesn't suck as badly as I think it will. LOL You are always your own worse critic. I guess if my friend Alice turns tomato red and stutters, I did good. LOL Working on a fe others too, I haven't sat down and written anything in a long time. I had a tragedy in my life several years ago and all my muses went quiet. They're just coming back now, so it should be fun to see what comes out! XD
          
          Anyways, will be posting soon!

So, I've decided to write a BTS fic. I'm working on it now but want several chapters done before I start posting. It's using the plot from one of my all-time favorite movies, an old old one from 1980! LOL It'll be Yoonmin, but I'm going to make it my own and twist it into hopefully something more fun and hopefully less angsty than the movie cuz that movie will traumatize you with the angst and romance. I don't think I can write like that, but that's why I'm doing this, to stretch my limits and branch out. Hopefully I can write something people will enjoy reading. (No one seems to like Damen XD)
          
          I honestly don't know why I'm even posting this here. I don't think anyone actually looks LOL

I've realized, I really love the BTS supernatural AUs like Omegaverse, vampires etc. If anyone happens to have any favorites, please share! It doesn't have to be BTS, only MxM, gay, etc. I very much love smut. LOL Not into het tho, but if there is platonic Wo/sismance, siblings, etc., I'm jiggy.