☆Sirius☆

Its half term so guess who might be dying his hair if he can get the hair dye 

Yes I have action figures hanging from my ceiling by their necks, no I'm not a serial killer

Lover applications on wattpad when you're a minor should not be a thing 
          
          Its dangerous and you don't know who the people you're talking to are and if they are lying about their age or not 
          
          
          This goes for systems as well if you're bodily a minor you shouldn't be doing it, it doesn't matter if you as an alter are not a minor it is putting the system as a whole at risk 

Almost exactly 3 weeks before a relapse, literally 40 minutes until 21 days
          
          So close to a month and I'm disappointed in myself but its the longest I've gone in while 

Would anyone be interested in reading my poems?
          
          They're all vent poetry and the one I'm working on rn is called "my brain"

I love the walk to my Nan's house cause its like, old people's home with really pretty flowers, field of sheep, cow shed then her house 
          
          There's also random pedophile who hides in the bushes between the sheep and cows but that's irrelevant

Suffering in pain whilst my mother refuses to take me to the doctors to talk about using a mobility aid cause 'it's not bad enough' 
          
          WOMEN I CANT WALK FOR TO LONG WITHOUT COLAPSING I CANT RUN AT ALL AND SOMETIMES I CANT GET OUT OF BED A MOBILITY AID WOULD HELP EM 

ALL I CAN GEAR IN THE STREET RIGHT NOW IS "CALIFORNIA GIRLS WHERE UNFORGETTABLE" RIGHT OUTSIDE MY WINDOW OVER A SPEAKER IM DYING ITS MY NEIGHBOURS (A BUNCH IF TEENAGE BOYS) PLAYING IT AS WELL

Tw: talks of ed
          
          
          
          
          
          Stop romanticizing eating disorders or saying you have an eating disorder when you don't
          
          Just because you skip one meal a week doesn't mean you have an eating disorder it means you skip a meal
          
          Do you even know what an eating disorder is or how bad it affects someone? 
          
          You don't know how it feels to have an eating disorder  until you weigh three stone nine (about 52lbs) at the age of eleven 
          
          You don't know how it feels to have an eating disorder until you weigh yourself and check your bmi everyday and are disappointed when it's not where you want it even though where you're at is extremely unhealthy
          
          You don't know how it feels to have an eating disorder until you spend hours of your life scrolling through ed communities on twt looking at 'thinspo' and convincing yourself you are over weight when you are a twelve year old weighing the same as a literal child because you have thicker thighs than the people online 
          
          You don't know how it feels to have an eating disorder until you sit crying after you eat because you regret it but can't make yourself throw up 
          
          You don't know how it feels to have an eating disorder until you cry feeling like you're faking because 'others have it worse' because no one notices you're suffering until you say it 
          
          You don't know how it feels to have an eating disorder until you refuse to leave your house in anything other than baggy clothes because you think you're to fat 
          
          
          
          This is all about my experience with anorexia that I struggled with since I was about nine, not all eating disorders are the same and I am not in anyway undermining anyone's struggles I just get pissed off when people lie about it 
          
          DO NOT REPORT I AM FINE NOW AND CURRENTLY AT AN AVERAGE BODY WEIGHT FOR MY AGE AND HEIGHT I RELAPSED RECENTLY BUT GOT THE HELP I NEEDED 
          
          Also I'm not twelve I am older this is just the time I was struggling the most 

WE 15 DAYS CLEAN BOYS 
          
          LIKE EXACTLY A MINUTE AGO ASWELL IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF